In all honesty, no lawyer I have met has desired to fight for our rights. I think every single one of them believed that I was just being vindictive, and that really hurts because I was being falsely judged and accused due to the situation being of immoral intent. It is unfortunate that nobody at that time wished to honorably defend my children and I.
Anybody who knows me could tell you that is not my character at all. I live for fairness. Being honest and trying to do what is right by my children. I know it is my right as their mother to do so. My child deserves to know the truth and my ex husband wouldn't know the truth if it hit him in the face.
Why is it then, that there is not a lawyer in Pinellas County to help me? I get that I don't have much money, but does anybody care about the principle of the matter? My children are currently being neglected. They are having to compete for the love and attention of a paramour with three of her own children, and their father who is always working and doesn't know how to show his love.
Is all this just a cruel learning lesson?
Were not the last 10 years of being abused, neglected, and mistreated enough?
What is the law doing to people by neglecting them this way?
This injustice system is driving parents out into the deep end and abandoning them! Control the human population by allowing them to turn against each other, and financially feed off their misery by making them get evaluated, and putting them on psychiatric meds that make them suicidal?
Now our kids are becoming suicidal as well, due to the instability and separation of either parent.
That is the result of your broken system FAMILY LAW.
All THE system does on top of this is cause more friction. There is no chance of reunification really, because all they do is cause a wider gap by postponing any resolution through court. Then everyone gives the excuse that the system is flawed. I shouldn't have to accept that! I am a mother, somebody has to fix it now; I aim to do everything in my power to do just that. I am a firm believer too that if you want something done right sometimes you have to do it yourself.
I empathize with those married couples that believe in this justice system. I empathize, because I used to be one of those people that believed the law did right by the people. I was sadly mistaken. Even doing things by the book gets you absolutely nowhere fast. All it does is give you anxiety and spinning your mind around a never ending battle that can't be won. You are better off compromising with your ex spouse to gain some kind of an understanding rather than going through the court.
Guess what? It might take me a lot longer than other's to get things done because of my learning disability, but don't you dare believe that just because I am different that you have the right to take advantage of me. That is DISCRIMINATION! At least I can genuinely say that I get it in, what I need to accomplish in life on my own accord. At least I can say you didn't break me and that I am self reliant on my own.
Most people might have felt hopeless and given up trying to be with their babies again. My biggest asset is my persistent persevering nature. I am NEVER quitting. It might appear that way to some, but I am always brainstorming of how I can make my children's world a better place. I REFUSE to have my kids go through life without feeling secure, safe, and stable. That is an awful way to feel. Nobody should ever have to endure such torture, and my children HAVE ENDURED ENOUGH TRAUMA THEY DESERVE TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE.
Just so you know I don't miss a beat when it comes to my children I am a marvelous record keeper. I am about to expose the truth ya'll and I am going to be very detailed, precise, and show you facts. I am about to take you on a very corrupted legal journey into my darkest nightmare.
The original court appointed attorney stepped down due to conflict of interest because he didn't want to meet my demands for a paternity test. A scientific paternity test may have solved a lot of our problems, considering that my Narcissistic ex husband tortured my oldest son his whole life because there was suspicion that my ex husbands brother was my sons father. When this attorney stepped down and another attorney stepped in I decided to just squash the paternity test and go another route.
They appointed me this lady and I gave her all my evidence and she completely dismissed it.
I had to pay out my own pocket while I was deemed indigent by the court for my own witnesses to be subpoenaed on my own behalf. Which just backfired on me. It was a zoo. I tell ya.
I went through many hoops and lengths to try and defend myself. I typed all of this out and presented it to the court on my own behalf and I asked the judge to allow me to defend myself. Of course she did not advise that I do so.
I even filed my own petitions/ motions on my own behalf and I did so much research and running around that I believe I missed my calling to become one hell of a legal assistant. It is confusing but I find the law to be fascinating.
My court appointed disgrace of an attorney had the audacity to assume that I was pregnant. I think she just couldn't stand to be in the same room with me. So I tried firing her, but the judge refused.
At this same time I was residing in a Domestic Violence shelter in Tampa called CASA and Safe Haven. I got legal advice. I was able to attain a Disability lawyer and it took 3 years with her, but I finally got it approved, thank u.
Jesus saw that I was suffering some crazy epileptic episodes throughout this whole stressful court process. It actually made me very sick. It pushed me over the edge to becoming jobless, homeless, feeling vulnerable, mental anguish, pain, and suffering strung along with chronic health conditions. It was tough, very tough.
The hardest part was when my son referred to me as a bum. That was the hardest part, was letting him see me like that and realizing that never should have happened, but there is a valuable lesson to be learned. There always is. He had to see the result of what being shunned by his father looked like because he was bound to be next. Homelessness is lack of nurturing love.
This attorney did not present any of it in court. My mom was the only one that defended me in the courtroom that day and Judge Patricia Moore.
The court appointed attorney literally ganged up on me with the Department and Children and Families.
when I told them in the courtroom on November 9, 2015 that I was going to sue the State of Florida and DCF for discrimination. My court appointed attorney Sara Evelyn Mclane, Cynthia D. Ennis DCF attorney, William T. Canavan ex husband attorney, Gaurdian as Litem and Eric Zaccardi DCF worker laughed at me and I looked into Judge Patricia Moore eyes and saw that she wasn't laughing and I balled my eyes out and wept.
