The day of the car accident....
Saul and I argued
often, what we were arguing about specifically tonight I really couldn't tell
you. Honestly, I didn't even feel like we were arguing at all, maybe just not
agreeable on what we were watching on TV. So Saul decided to Tomahawk chuck the
remote squarely in between my two eyes off of my forehead. All I saw was
star's. I was so stunned and hurt that I began to cry and Saul started
apologizing to say it was just an accident, but clearly it wasn't. It was
mean and deliberate and I felt violated so I left and went for a ride in my
car.
I didn't know of
many places I could go. I did have a client named Missy who I would give a
ride to work early every morning. I decided to park in front of her house and
wait it out till morning. Missy spotted me parked out in her driveway and
welcomed me into her home. I opened up to her and shared my marital problems I
was having with Saul to her. She seemed to sympathize with me and helped me
cope with my emotions.
That morning as I
was driving Missy to work we made a complete stop at a stop sign and saw a
vehicle coming towards us. The truck appeared to be coming at us head on and
not slowing down and it hit us and kept coming. I blew on my horn to alert the
driver who seemed to be asleep at the wheel. The truck just plowed through my
car pushing it ten feet away. Missy exits my vehicle yelling at the driver,
"Hey Bitch! Can't you see us stopped here? What are you blind?" The
driver who appeared to be Vietnamese whom was half awake was
like "huh?"
Ridiculous, I
wasn't even able to get out of my driver side door it had to be completely
replaced. The insurance company wanted to declare my car a total loss. I wasn't
about to do such a thing considering that I finally paid it off and put a ton
of money into it. I was ready for this car to make me some money back. What I
didn't realize is that I was going to have to kill my back doing it. I was in
some serious back pain. No playing. I needed a tens unit, chiropractor, massage
therapy, and all that shit. I found out that I had three herniated discs in my
back and will have to suffer with sporadic back pain for the rest of my life.
It was excruciating sciatica pain too that would run down the leg
preventing me to walk correctly.
I recall Primo was
supposed to fix my car. Saul, Primo, and I went to find parts at the junkyard
and I was limping around in pain. I wanted to make sure the job was getting
done. Sometimes if you want something done right you have to take matters into
your own hands and that is what I was trying to do. Knowing Primo it kind of
backfired on me, but regardless I knew it was going to because that is what
happens every time you mix business with family. Primo wanted all the money up
front, and he was mad because I would only give him half until the job was
done. Sure enough Primo took his sweet ass time doing it and did a half assed
job as well and I was expected to pay him for a job well done which seemed like
a joke to me. To top it all off he shows up with his girlfriend and talks down
to me like I was the biggest shit bag on Earth for not conducting business
professionally. Personally it hurt a lot that Primo always just saw me as some
kind of personal investment instead of a human being with feelings.
(Message to Primo-
Granted I may not do things the same way everyone else does there is always a
method behind it. In this case it was to prevent you from shoving it all up
your nose and doing none of the work. I can't believe you. Now you see why I
reacted the way that I did? I saw what your plans were for me, you had no
intention to help me, you had every intention to screw me, but I made you help
me anyway and this pissed you off. Do you really think I am dumb? Think again.
Never underestimate my psychic abilities baby. I got you pegged my love. I will
never fall for your scrupulous endeavors no matter how clever. That is the one
thing this lesson has taught me.)
I was in so much
pain the next day. On my way to the bathroom I passed out. Saul caught my fall
and called the ER because I was not breathing. Ambulance said my blood pressure
was extremely low. I woke up completely paralyzed. I was not able to move, I
had no feeling. This was my first syncope somatic episode. It had not occurred
to me at the time that what I had experienced was a seizure that had been triggered by the severe pain in my back.
