Showing posts with label EVOLUTION. Show all posts
Showing posts with label EVOLUTION. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

Chapter 63- Court Appointed Disgrace

Come to find out before the trial that my lawyer had a conflict of interest because I filed to have a scientific paternity test done by the court to determine whether my husband was the biological father of both of my sons. The lawyer, being a father himself, did not feel this was just.  I understood where he was coming from, I know it was a complicated case and he did not want to put in the work.

In all honesty, no lawyer I have met has desired to fight for our rights. I think every single one of them believed that I was just being vindictive, and that really hurts because I was being falsely judged and accused due to the situation being of immoral intent. It is unfortunate that nobody at that time wished to honorably defend my children and I.

Anybody who knows me could tell you that is not my character at all. I live for fairness. Being honest and trying to do what is right by my children. I know it is my right as their mother to do so. My child deserves to know the truth and my ex husband wouldn't know the truth if it hit him in the face.

Why is it then, that there is not a lawyer in Pinellas County to help me? I get that I don't have much money, but does anybody care about the principle of the matter? My children are currently being neglected. They are having to compete for the love and attention of a paramour with three of her own children, and their father who is always working and doesn't know how to show his love.


Is all this just a cruel learning lesson?
Were not the last 10 years of being abused, neglected, and mistreated enough?
What is the law doing to people by neglecting them this way?

This injustice system is driving parents out into the deep end and abandoning them! Control the human population by allowing them to turn against each other, and financially feed off their misery by making them get evaluated, and putting them on psychiatric meds that make them suicidal?
Now our kids are becoming suicidal as well, due to the instability and separation of either parent.

That is the result of your broken system FAMILY LAW.

All THE system does on top of this is cause more friction. There is no chance of reunification really, because all they do is cause a wider gap by postponing any resolution through court. Then everyone gives the excuse that the system is flawed. I shouldn't have to accept that! I am a mother, somebody has to fix it now; I aim to do everything in my power to do just that. I am a firm believer too that if you want something done right sometimes you have to do it yourself.

I empathize with those married couples that believe in this justice system. I empathize, because I used to be one of those people that believed the law did right by the people. I was sadly mistaken. Even doing things by the book gets you absolutely nowhere fast. All it does is give you anxiety and spinning your mind around a never ending battle that can't be won. You are better off compromising with your ex spouse to gain some kind of an understanding rather than going through the court.

Guess what? It might take me a lot longer than other's to get things done because of my learning disability, but don't you dare believe that just because I am different that you have the right to take advantage of me. That is DISCRIMINATION! At least I can genuinely say that I get it in, what I need to accomplish in life on my own accord. At least I can say you didn't break me and that I am self reliant on my own.

Most people might have felt hopeless and given up trying to be with their babies again. My biggest asset is my persistent persevering nature. I am NEVER quitting. It might appear that way to some, but I am always brainstorming of how I can make my children's world a better place. I REFUSE to have my kids go through life without feeling secure, safe, and stable. That is an awful way to feel. Nobody should ever have to endure such torture, and my children HAVE ENDURED ENOUGH TRAUMA THEY DESERVE TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE.

Just so you know I don't miss a beat when it comes to my children I am a marvelous record keeper. I am about to expose the truth ya'll and I am going to be very detailed, precise, and show you facts. I am about to take you on a very corrupted legal journey into my darkest nightmare.




The original court appointed attorney stepped down due to conflict of interest because he didn't want to meet my demands for a paternity test. A scientific paternity test may have solved a lot of our problems, considering that my Narcissistic ex husband tortured my oldest son his whole life because there was suspicion that my ex husbands brother was my sons father. When this attorney stepped down and another attorney stepped in I decided to just squash the paternity test and go another route.

They appointed me this lady and I gave her all my evidence and she completely dismissed it.

This is a very organized detailed time line of all the evidence and events. I even had text messages and proof lined up. Case numbers,  police reports, pictures.  Everything.

I had to pay out my own pocket while I was deemed indigent by the court for my own witnesses to be subpoenaed on my own behalf.  Which just backfired on me. It was a zoo. I tell ya.




I went through many hoops and lengths to try and defend myself. I typed all of this out and presented it to the court on my own behalf and I asked the judge to allow me to defend myself.  Of course she did not advise that I do so.

I even filed my own petitions/ motions on my own behalf and I did so much research and running around that I believe I missed my calling to become one hell of a legal assistant. It is confusing but I find the law to be fascinating.






My court appointed disgrace of an attorney had the audacity to assume that I was pregnant.  I think she just couldn't stand to be in the same room with me. So I tried firing her, but the judge refused.



At this same time I was residing in a Domestic Violence shelter in Tampa called CASA and Safe Haven.  I got legal advice. I was able to attain a Disability lawyer and it took 3 years with her, but I finally got it approved, thank u.

Jesus saw that I was suffering some crazy epileptic episodes throughout this whole stressful court process.  It actually made me very sick. It pushed me over the edge to becoming jobless, homeless,  feeling vulnerable, mental anguish, pain, and suffering strung along with chronic health conditions. It was tough, very tough.

The hardest part was when my son referred to me as a bum. That was the hardest part,  was letting him see me like that and realizing that never should have happened, but there is a valuable lesson to be learned. There always is.  He had to see the result of what being shunned by his father looked like because he was bound to be next. Homelessness is lack of nurturing love.

This attorney did not present any of it in court. My mom was the only one that defended me in the courtroom that day and Judge Patricia Moore.

The court appointed attorney literally ganged up on me with the Department and Children and Families.

when I told them in the courtroom on November 9, 2015 that I was going to sue the State of Florida and DCF for discrimination.  My court appointed attorney Sara Evelyn Mclane, Cynthia D. Ennis DCF attorney, William T. Canavan ex husband attorney, Gaurdian as Litem and Eric Zaccardi DCF worker laughed at me and I looked into Judge Patricia Moore eyes and saw that she wasn't laughing and I balled my eyes out and wept.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Chapter 63- Hello From Heaven

Psalm 7-

Arise, O Lord, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies,
Awake, my God; decree justice.
Let the assembled people's gather around you.
Rule over them from on high;
let the lord judge the peoples.
Judge me, O Lord, according to my righteousness.
According to my integrity, O most high
O righteous God,
Who searches minds and hearts,
bring to an end the violence of the wicked and make the righteous secure.

My shield is God most high,
Who saves the upright in heart.
God is a righteous judge,
A God who expresses his wrath every day.
If he does not relent,
He will sharpen his sword;
He will bend and string his bow.
He has prepared his deadly weapons;
He makes ready his flaming arrows.

He who is pregnant with evil
And conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment.
He who digs a hole and scoops it out
Falls into the pit he has made
The trouble he causes recoils on himself; his violence comes down on his own head.

I will give thanks to the Lord because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the Lord Most High.

LORD please deliver us from this torture to deny us of our right's to raise our children to know better. To know the truth. To know right from wrong. To do better for our future.

Thanks be to you Lord in the name of Jesus.

God speed ahead. To open the eye's of all the unbelievers that exist and awaken their third eye.

We are ready father.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

ALERT!!! HELP ME FIND MY CHILDREN!!


MISSING CHILDREN ALERT!!
September 14, 2017

I live in Tampa FL currently and my kid's reside in Pinellas County FL. You may not be aware but recently we had Hurricane Irma threat to our area. Luckily it was not as bad as it was expected to be. The Pinellas County area was evacuated and my son's and their father left the State of Florida on September 10, 2017. Since that day I have not heard from them. I am 😞 worried.


THIS IS WHAT MY HUSBAND AND KID'S LOOK LIKE...


I called the Pinellas County Sheriffs Office (PCSO) to conduct a well check to see if my children were safe. The deputy stated that it appears that everyone has evacuated the premises and that my husbands car was still in the parking lot. I asked the deputy if he could please write a report concerning my call and what he found. The deputy seemed very bothered by my request since he mentioned that he has many of these calls. I asked him kindly to do so that way I can bring a copy of his report to court on September 22, 2017 to provide proof of concern about the welfare of my children.

LAST TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY HUSBAND SEPTEMBER 10, 2017












The last time I heard from them was five day's ago and I got a text message that they were in Alabama. He was driving a minivan. It appears that his phone may be dead. It goes straight to voicemail and he is not responding to any of my text's.  What am I supposed to do? I love my boys and I need to know if they are alive and safe.

IF ANYBODY HAPPENS TO SEE THESE TWO CHILDREN PLEASE NOTIFY ME (BONNIE) RIGHT AWAY AT 7275579921. I NEED TO KNOW WHERE THESE TWO BOY'S ARE.    

ISAIAH 11 YEARS OLD

 LIAM 4 YEARS OLD


BTW Both my boy's  are safe now but not knowing as a loving mother is a heart attack waiting to happen. It is the cruelest lesson to prey upon a parent. That is what my ex-husband did to me. Now I give it to God. Thou shall it be. I never wish to feel this way again.


Friday, September 8, 2017

CHAPTER 61: REVELATIONS





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Blessed is the one who reads the words of this prophecy, and blessed are those who hear it and take heart what is written in it, because the time is near.
                                -REVELATION 1:3

Then one of the elders asked me. "These in white robes--who are they, and where did they come from?" I answered, "Sir, you know." And he said, "These are they who have come out of the great tribulation; they have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the lamb. Therefore, they are before the throne of God and serve him day and night in his temple; and he who sits on the throne will spread his tent over them. Never again will they hunger; never again will they thirst. The sun will not beat upon them, nor any scorching heat. For the lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepard; they will lead you to spring's of living water. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes."
                      - REVELATIONS- 7:13

August 21, 2017

Great American solar eclipse will be the final wakeup call to stir this spiritual enlightenment. A reminder that you must repent. Many will not survive these trying time's. Prepare yourselves.

The fourth Angel sounded his trumpet, and a third of the sun was struck, a third of the moon, and a third of the star's, so that a third of them turned dark. A third of the day was without light, and also a third of the night.
As I watched, I heard an eagle that was flying in midair call out in a loud voice: "woe! woe to the inhabitants of the earth, because of the trumpet blasts about to be sounded by the other three angels!" -                          -REVELATIONS- 8:12

Cataclysmic judgement will be in effect for the next 33 day's. After will become the Great American Firestorm.

God's purpose of fearful sights and great signs from heaven is to bring many people- who would not have done otherwise- to call upon the name of the Lord.


For the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. -Romans 10:12

GOD has designed special configurations among the stars to function as signs.  They are signs that herald prophetic events among the Earth. This heralding will serve notice before the eyes of the world that the time of event's foretold by the Lord has arrived. All this means that the great sign of heaven has full authority to function as a public event legally documenting the final great warning of God.

The Lord is the great prophet. As a prophet he is accountable to warn all who are under his ministry. The great wonder in heaven is his imminent and astounding warning to all the time of judgement is here.....

The judgement is written in the book......

The judgement is written in the stars....

The prophets have warned you....

This judgement is just.

This means the Lord cannot be charged with any wrong against man or angel for the judgement he is bringing upon this world.
                               -Ezekiel-

You are served notice. The Lords end time events are about to overtake you. The great sign in heaven is the colossal herald proclaiming that the prophetic troubles of the last days have arrived. Most of us refuse to believe Gods work by faith, while we believe his working through a sign. So God is going to give us a sign. A great sign. This great sign will herald sudden and great judgement. 

But why?

The rebel lawmakers of the golden empire have foolishly attacked Christian purity. The attack on purity is because the lawmakers will not have holiness to rule over them. 

But to reject God's holiness is to reject God himself. In the end, the rebels own reasoning force's them to declare war on God. As soon as the rebels feel bold enough, open war breaks out. In defiance, they reach out and seize their own court officers that are still walking in holiness. 

At this point the spirit of Sodom overtakes the land, the Lord acts swiftly. The judgement of Sodom will be poured out on the spirit of Sodom. 
The Lord begins moving into place his storehouse, for the day of battle. 

Like little David, all he needs is some rocks, the day of battle arrives. It is a day of fearful sights and great sign from heaven. 

The Lord takes aim and the golden Goliath suddenly falls. 


The empire will die in one hour, unrepentant in its wickedness. 
                    -REVELATIONS-18:10

The unrepentant empire - and the church in the unrepentant empire- have together refused to confess the empires fatal sin. 

What is this fatal sin that brings such sudden judgement? 

Our fatal sin is the replacement of holiness with human rights as our guiding moral principle in life and government. This is a direct opposition to the Lords decree:

You shall be holy, for I the Lord your God am holy.
                             -Leviticus- 19:2

They manifest insanity of pornographic rights, abortion rights, and homosexual rights. This is why evil has become good and good has become evil in our land.

The unrepentant adherence to the doctrine of human rights that is producing the trampling of the holiness of God in our courts is the garuntee of the firestorm of the golden empire. Your only hope will be to turn to the Lord Jesus Christ. For Jesus himself said:

As earnestly as I can say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of heaven. 💘 I am not sure where it is written but there is a nice passage that touched me deeply on -John 2- 

In the same conversation with Nicodemus, Jesus also said;

For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son. That whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life.

Call on him with all your heart. Please do not risk one day's wait. 
Everyone pray out loud with me, even if you are already born-again.
Decide now a say this prayer;

Jesus! I cry out to you. I admit I am a sinner- fallen and under your judgement. In confusion I have replaced your holiness with mans counterfeit. I want to be born- again and see rightly. Rescue me from your firestorm. ...and send your holy spirit to dwell in me.
                                     Amen

Now try your spiritual eyes. Find a bible and read the Gospel of John.
It is the fourth book in the new testament. 

Noon over Jerusalem

Darkness falls over the Earth and the sign of great wonder appears within hours the firestorm of the golden empire begins.

Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show compassion on you. For the Lord is a God of Justice.

These are the consequences for allowing the constructs of the devil to worm his way into our families and divide us from our kin. The lord is the only one that has a right to judge our existence. He is taking back his power soon. He is right and just in doing so for humankind is losing their way. The devil has corrupted the mind's and hearts of parent's to not rise up and take action. So the Lord is determined to take action to do it for us. This is divine intervention. He will give us the nudge we need now. It is our god given right as parents to raise these millennia's to be a better humanity. A more loving humanity. A more advanced and knowledgeable species. Which cannot happen until we tear apart our old constructs that the devil arranged and reroot and build a stronger foundation that cannot be corrupted.

I am not a doomsday conspirator. This message is divinely guided from our maker preparing you for the inevitable transformation of a New Earth.  A new beginning into the bronze Era. We must not fear this, but embrace this change with an open mind and heart, with love and light. For ALL of us are evolving whether we like it or not, we know it is coming and overdue. There is no escaping this fate. Just prepare your soul for this experience. Ask our maker for forgiveness and salvation. Make sure your children are purified as well. For they will be held accountable too. Do not dismiss a single soul. Repent and bring as many soul's with you. God will reward you. Christ will save you from all harm, so do not fear the trumpets blast for many will be protected from the wrath if they have faith in their heart's, and are putting in their life mission to save themselves, ground their body in Gaia, and connect to as many soul's along the way. 

What will happen 3rd of July 2020 going into September 17, 2020? Get ready for the REVELATION 12 sign.


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Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Chapter 58- Tampa Bay Crash Course of Injustice...(7)



09/01/2009- Present Day

The authorities were alerted, B had to make them aware of Missy and Saul's criminal records.

Why had Marc Meredith taken none of the allegations made by Bea towards her children's abusers seriously?

Reading the police reports and CPS reports after the incident has only proven B's theory. None of Bea's allegations were even in the report that the CPI wrote concerning the shelter petition to the judge, so how could they have been properly investigated if they were not even documented?

CPI filed an emergency shelter petition at the same time Bea had filed an injunction of protection for her two kids against these two who were getting away with abusing her children. By following with this act CPI obstructed the mother from protecting her children. The mother was trying to bring her children to a safe place, instead CPI obscured the violence and turned it around on the mother to make her appear incompetent. They tortured the mother with legal enforcement making sure she lost custody while hiding their own incompetence and had her children become dependents of the State of Florida. At the same time placing her children in temporary custody with their abuser, putting her children in even more danger.

Since the kids were placed in his care they have been showing signs of abuse, neglect, and developmental delays. The children's medical needs are not being met, and the mother is being withheld from any contact with her children against her will by her husband, Ekkerd Family Services, Lutheran Family Services, and the State of Florida.

The mother is now disabled due to the ongoing abuse from her past relationship, and has been suffering PTSD. This has been crippling Bea since their seperation. Bea's helpless efforts of trying to protect her children and getting no relief since June 2015 caused Bea's developmental chronic health conditions to get worse due to the mental anguish of the situation that resulted from domestic violence over the past 11 years to evolve and become even more debilitating.

It is not her mental health that prevents her from pushing forward, for instance her husband has made her out to be some basket case. If that had been the case, wouldn't she have given up and killed herself a long time ago? It has been her physical health that falls to the wayside every month when she has to figure out a way to afford and attain her healthcare. When she cannot. The results are chronic fatigue and syncope episodes.

Of course, DCF, the department of children and families, has refused to acknowledge that Bea has chronic medical health issues that have evolved due to abuse. This has encompassed neurological damage due to various violent traumatic brain injuries from excessive blows to the head from her abuser . As a result she has also experienced many grand mal seizures. The State of Florida will not even deem her as disabled, making it impossible to get the medical attention she deserves, or the medical attention her children deserve.

Bea is currently diagnosed with Epilepsy, Insomnia, Hypothyroidism, Depression, ADD and PTSD. Most victim's of Domestic Violence do suffer with Depression and PTSD, but it should not be used against them getting their kid's back in a court of law especially if it is being treated. In Bea's case she was being treated by her Nuerologist and PCP for the past 3 years before this incident even occured. Her psychologists for the past 11 years had prescribed her the same dose of drugs for ten years and never did she have a problem until all the domestic violence caught up to her.

During the trial Bea was being wrongfully persecuted for acting out of sorts in front of a CPI after her child was assaulted. Excuse me, is there really a proper way to act after somebody has left a mark on your kid? Maybe Bea should have decked the bitch, then perhaps Bea would feel more justified in losing them, but she didn't. No, instead she paced back and forth trying to keep her composure. Even after Bea's kid's were removed from her home she still lived with the woman who assaulted her child and never layed a finger on her. That in itself takes a lot of gumption and will power and say's a lot about Bea's as a person. Bea even prepared herself in self defense at Grady's MMA gym because the Boheeva was making threats and false reports to the cops against B continuously.  Bea kept her cool.  Bea tolerated a lot of bullshit, but she was no sucka, she knew when she was being played. She knew she had to do the right thing. Low and behold when people think they have B down for the count she comes back even stronger, but she tries to avoid confrontation if at all cost.

A urine analysis by the CPI proved that Bea was not taking any illegal substances. CPI stated Bea was on no meds when in fact Bea was on her prescribed meds. He did a urine, not a blood. Is this CPI a chemist too? Bea was clean, but he is searching for a way to falsely incriminate her because he has already formed a biased opinion against her and has deemed her as unstable due to speculation. Now it seems as if he is going out of his way to frame Bea. To tell the judge that Bea has a mental illness because of her odd behavior, which in legal terms is a fancy term called gregarious misconduct. Ok Marc Meridith so your a psychologists now? When did you get your degree to evaluate people and diagnose them with a mental illness?
CPI, Mark Meridith, sat on the stand during my trail and claimed that he used to be an ENT, and in his field he often brought patients into the ER with BiPolar Disorder and they were prescribed Lamictal.

Bea really wished she was elected as a pro se litigant instead of being represented by the stupid court appointed attorney Sara Mc Lane, who totally dismissed all of her allegations of child abuse during this trial and brought absolutely nothing up to the judge, Patricia Moore, and did not represent her for shit.

For if Bea had the chance to cross interrogate this CPI, Mark Meredith, she would have regained her power in the court room that day, but instead she slumped in her chair wallowing in self pity knowing she was helpless because not a single individual in that courtroom chose to do their due diligence and expose the truth.

If Bea could do it all over again this is what she would have asked him,

 "Mr. Meridith have you ever read what Lamictal treats people for?"

 (It was quite obvious that he had not a clue.)

B was aware of the law now, so she would have already presented a reputable source of medical information prior to the hearing as exhibit A, then explained to the court that it was a medical document from the pharmacy that prescribed Bea Lamictal explaining the drug and what it is used for. Then she would have made him read it out loud to the court.

Then Bea would have rebuttled with this statement. " See, Mark Meridith was right about one thing, Lamictal has been proven to treat people with Bi-Polar disorder in many mental health facilities, but it is a drug that has multiple use's as well. Lamictal is a mood stabilizer that helps people with PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, and also an anti-convulsant that help's those that have seizures."

Then B would have asked, "Mr. Meridith are you aware of which Dr. Prescribes Bea this medicine?"
(Which of course he must not have known.)

"Well is it not your job to investigate this before making assumptions? If you would have done your due diligence you would have discovered the truth. When Bea handed over the bottle of Lamictal to you that you asked her for, which is a indirect violation of her privacy by the way. If you would have properly investigated you would have noticed that Dr. Obi Okonkwo Onuigbo was her Nuerologist, which in fact is treating Bea with this drug for her seizures. That Bea in fact does not have Bi Polar Disorder like you assumed, and in fact has never been diagnosed with a mental illness in her whole entire life. So you speculated and assumed all of this? The gregarious misconduct you witnessed was a retaliation of her witnessing you not doing your due diligence, once again, by the safety of her children."

Unfortunately no judge ever allowed Bea an opportunity to rebuttal any of witnesses.

Bea still can't believe this man was a Child Protective Investigator! She made sure before she left the courtroom that day that she had the last word.
She told him, "Thank You for ruining me and my children's  lives."

His speculation and lack of due diligence had cost her two whole year's without her children. All will be damned if she ended up burying one of her kid's before herself due to one man's incompetence and the vile system that backed him up even after they discovered he was wrong. Bea wanted to reopen this case and make sure Mark Meridith was held accountable for her children's well being, for it was his decision to place them with an abuser. As well as Judge Patricia Moore, Eric Zaccardi, Sara McLane, Sara E. Miller, Michelle Forester, and Mrs. Ennis. All of you should be held accountable under the Vulnerable Person's Act. Bea sincerely prays it will never have to come down to one of her children dying due to their lack of justice and neglect.

That was the last time B saw Mark Meridith because soon after he suposedly retired. Ain't that some shit? So, does that mean that they get away with it? After the trial the State District Attorney Mrs. Ennis said, "Well hopefully we can all start moving forward and put this all behind us." For the life of B she can't get that women's vile smirk out of her head. It haunts her in her nightmare's. Mrs Ennis was a wicked evil midget lady that probably gets off on ruining innocent peoples lives.

During the trial when I brought up the fact that I was grieving over the loss of my nana, they all started laughing, even my attorney. Only hurtful devious people would find that humerous. They thought it was an act that I was suffering and to this day I still suffer even worse because my kids are not with me. They fed off my pain and misery, and tried to turn it into a joke. When in fact what I had survived with was very real, and was the worst pain and torture I would not even wish upon my worst enemy.

Does it really seem that far fetched that this narcissistic and vindictive man that comes off as being smug and almighty is not abusive? Bea thought that would have seemed obvious. Is it just that much easier for them to assume that B was lying then actually doing their job properly and catching him in the act? Is there really no justice in the justice system?

I mean since Bea's children have been in his care as of August 20th 2015 her youngest has almost drowned at the bottom of a swimming pool, was pushed off the top of a bunk bed splitting his lip, has suffered two TBI that she is aware of, suffered second degree burns on his hands, has had rashes going up to his neck, lice, chronic congestive upper and lower respiratory breathing problems, is lactose intolerant and being forced to drink regular milk, still not completely potty trained at the age of four, developmentally delayed and missed out on VPK, Early Head Start, and speech therapy, and hasn't had a follow up with his ENT since his surgical procedure. Both of Bea's children's medical needs are being neglected. They are not getting their annual health check up's with their PCP since they left Bea's care, no gaestroentologist, or dentist visits in the past two years.

Bea's children were not taken to the hospital for any of the incidents that had occurred due to trauma. Both children need to be given help and therapy due to neglect, abuse, and being seperated from their mother without any reason or explanation.

Bea's oldest child since August 22, 2015 has witnessed all this being done to his brother trying to protect him.

Her son has been uprooted three times and has gone to four different schools.

Is supposed to be on an IEP because he has a learning disability that he was being treated for until Bea's husband just stopped taking him to his psychologists and getting his meds.

Her son has not been going to see any of his specialist like his cardiologist, orthopedists, allergist, and he has a receeding gum line that needs preventative care with braces.

This father wouldn't even bother to take his own  son for his annual check up and is past due for his 10 year immunizations.

Bea's son was supposed to be reevaluated as gifted so he could be granted special educational service's through the magnet schools. Now he is barely passing.

Bea's husband threw it in B's son's face repeatedly that he was not his biological father, and when B's son finally retaliated and threw a glass of water in his face B's husband took him out into the middle of the street and beat him senseless. Then this man had the audacity to call B's mother and told her,"Come get your fucking grandson. I don't want him." Bea's son talked to his grandmother on the phone and she asked him if he was hurt and B's son said, "He hurt inside" B's mom called B and we immediately called the cops. By the time the cops arrived B's husband already coerced her son into playing his video games and not say a word. Bea's son has not been taken to the hospital for any of the incidents that have occurred due to trauma or sought therapy due to the neglect, abuse, or seperation from his mother .

Bea's son was complaining about a headache for over a month and was rushed to the ER when it got so severe, they had to undergo emergency brain surgery due to neglect of his health need's. The mother was never consulted or informed and to this day has not been able to get access to her son's health record's or inform this doctor about his past medical health history. She would have informed the doctor that brain cancer run's on her side of the family, he is in desperate need of his immunizations, he is fatally allergic to immunoglobulin E, and had tubes in her ears when he was a baby, and a bacterial infection in his left eye that often caused headaches due to black mold.  Then after the surgery two weeks lator she got a picture from her husband of her son in the hospital with a big slice in his head. Bea's son recorded a Youtube video all by himself in the hospital alone apologizing to his fan club explaining why he hadn't posted in so long. He looked so sad all alone, when he didn't have to be. She wanted to be there for her son, but was not even given a choice. B kept thinking how he could have died. She just cried wanting to be by his side, all she could do was cry by herself without him and upset with grief.


BEA monologue:

(Why have you covered up ALL the abuse and neglect? Why people? That's all I wanna know. Is it that hard to catch him in the act? Look at all the things that happen to them on a daily basis.

My husband is an alcoholic. He is an habitual offender. He drinks and drives, sometimes with the kid's in the car. Every holiday he acts out and becomes reckless and is a danger to himself and others. He keeps people against their will by taking their car key's, intimidation, blocking them with weapons, or locking them in their rooms.

He is constantly leaving my children home alone and acting like he don't care about them. He neglects their medical, educational, emotional, and financial need's.  He has tried to turn my kid's against their mom, and is trying to brainwash us into believing we don't love eachother. When in fact we miss the heck out of one another.

I know what you are all thinking.... That this is just another desperate attempt for a mother to lie through her teeth to get her children back. I have already been told by DCF that I won't get my children back if I keep making false reports, that they will go into foster care. I would much rather my kid's be in foster care then end up disabled like me.

I am more afraid of nobody believing me and him doing something bad to them again and getting away with it repeatedly then anything else.

I am speaking up.
I'm not afraid of him anymore finally I have worked up the gumption to speak up. This is what a good mom battling domestic violence looks like. Please don't turn your backs on me. Support me. Praise me. Honor my courage. Don't kick us when we are down Justice....

Now I am petrified for my kid's sake, please somebody do something.

I know this may seem far fetched and nobody in their right mind would go to this many lengths to be so cruel to their family, but my husband has. I was afraid to say it before, he harrassed and threatened us for 11 years. I just grew a spine finally. I am not afraid of him no more. I know he is not in his right mind, he need's help. My children need help too. They need to be away from him. They need to feel safe, secure, and loved. My husband is good at pretending and fooling people that he is able to provide such things. He will not without love. He has a fucked up way of showing love, but it is really not love that he is showing at all. What that is called is Envy and abuse. No child should have to be subjected to it. To learn how to really love and support takes time, compassion, and patience.

Bea and her children's National Human Rights are being violated as you read this. They are STILL being neglected and abused, and she is still being dismissed. Nothing is being resolved and the more this carries on without resolution the increase of her worries of her children ending up disabled, dead, or abducted.

She has gone above and beyond to prove to the Department with Children and Families that her children are suffering the same traumatic brain injuries that she is, and that they are not safe, but CPS does not take any of her allegations seriously even though she has medical reports proving that her youngest is experiencing developmental delays and is not seeking the special service's that she has gone through many lengths to establish since he was born.

Bea's eldest son's medical need's have been neglected to the point that he had an ongoing migrane for over a month that put him in the hospital undergoing emergency brain surgery due to several violent traumatic brain injuries.

Ekkerd Community Services and/or Lutheran Family Services interceded Bea's court ordered supervised weekly visits just to help hide their incompetence and neglect of the father in order to have an open and shut case.

When Bea reports to the Florida Abuse Hotline CPS just cover it up and tell the judge that she is making false reports, when in fact Bea is making them in good faith and wants to provide proof like pictures, voicemails, emails, witnesses and text messages.


  • CPS did not do their due diligence by this family to properly investigating her allegations that were made in good faith. Not once did an investigator come and show interest in the proof she had or interrogated her witness's. In reports words were being omitted, crucial reports of abuse and neglect were being covered up to make their job light.


DCF terminated Bea's Medicare so she has been unable to stay on her court ordered treatment plan, which she has been religiously following for the past three year's due to her chronic health conditions.

Why is CPI planting evidence and putting words in other people's mouths, and writing lie's on a shelter hearing petition?

Why are court appointed attorneys not stepping up and rightfully representing this falsely accused mother that has never harmed no one a day in her life?

Why does she not have custody of her two handsome boy's? Why?

DISCRIMINATION OF HER CIVIL RIGHTS DUE TO THE ADA!!

If we all had Parental Civil Rights like we should and they were enforced then none of this would be happening.

The Parental Civil Rights Movement is currently uprising and trying to implement laws to protect families that DCF, CPS, and civil judicial family law court appointed attorney's and judges have currently been violating families civil rights due to corruption in this false system. Authorities not doing their due diligence and lack thereof in the proper protocol of domestic violence victim's and insincerity of the vulnerable person's act.

You can't take a child away from their mother just because they are medically disabled. The parent is still capable of showing love to their child always, but what happens if one of the parents alienates the child from the other parent? Where does all that love go? Not to the child and you see that's where the system gets broken down and does not look at the childs best interest.

All the current system in place is doing, is breaking these poor babies hearts by keeping them away from their momma.

This is unjust! You put on orders by the judge that the goal is reunification. Yet, not even the department follows your order's. Most of them are not carried out because it is a faulty system that takes advantage of a disabled person, and kicks them when they are already down and will keep setting them up for failure when they are trying their damned hardest. This is what we call oppression amongst our government on the people.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

HOMELESSNESS (REVOLUTION Lyrics) by B' onnie

September 2015


HOMELESSNESS  - by, B' onnie

Homelessness 
Is mother nature's bliss
People take eachother for granted 
But when their gone
They will be greatly missed
Peace on Earth is such a fallacy

Pardon me
I struggle to get my need's 
Lack of nurturing love 
Is why I am here you see.

People think I'm gone
And wish I leave
But I will never give up 
On my love for me.

When I think I don't belong
I see the innocence of my son's.
Although they are near 
I cannot feel his hair,
Or help him out of his highchair.

I cannot sing, dance, or have fun
With my little baby son's!

It breaks my heart 
When people play these games
And ruin innocent children's lives
So they can get their way.

I'm sorry.....
The only thing or crime that I've done
Is loved the wrong man..

Son......


Sunday, April 30, 2017

Chapter 44- Inspirational Creativity (just scroll all the way down to read. Editing is being a bitch)



Bea became inspired to write again and to create lyrics. She had the urge to branch out and collaborate with other musicians to blend these lyrics with others music. Bea started blending her lyrics over other musician's tracks on soundcloud and discovered her creative collaborative expression and this felt liberating. 

Bea then began to question herself. Whatever happened to my dream of becoming a singer?


Bea prayed about it and GOD answered her by calling her back in and showing me that it is never too late. Bea realized then that what she needed was to move forward and embrace her gift to transcend a very important message that needed to be heard. 


Lyrics and melody's started coming out of nowhere. She would be in the shower and a song would come to her. She had to jump out of the shower and write it down before she forgot it, until Bea realized that she could use her voice recorder to catch the lyrics. It was like she was encompassing a spiritual awakening, and she desired to share it with the world. How? Was the question.  


Bea started branching out and meeting other musicians in the community. One gentleman, Clyde, she met on first Friday in St. Petersburg. He was already becoming a prominent musician there. Bea decided to call him and get together to see if she still had the spark to perform.


She first set out on her journey to a hot spot called Mad Hatters Ethnobotanical Tea Bar, which was the first kava and karaton bar she had ever encountered. That place has an amazing staff and very inviting atmosphere. She got a hooka and found the expertise of the staff helpful and highly recommend for anyone first trying kava. They made it a very chill experience. 


As she sat enjoying the ambiance and the hooka that was purchased, a young gentleman approached her. I don't recall his name, but he shared with her his gift of musical expression as well, and Bea asked him if he wanted to perform with her tonight. He agreed and we learned a song by Deelite, Grove Is In The Heart.


She sent a text message to Clyde... 


B: What club you at again?


Clyde: Heading to ringside right now, 2nd and central.


Bea told her friend and they both jumped on the scooter and headed downtown. They both sat at the bar and Bea shot Clyde another text.


B: I'm here now


Clyde : Where are you? Haha..I'm sitting out front, didn't see you inside. I guess text me when you're really there lol...


Bea  looked around and didn't see him.  Bea thought to herself.... is this a joke? Well I will step outside and scope it out. 


Bea didn't see Clyde and sent him another text.


B: Im outside. Where r you?


Finally Clyde walked into the bar and Bea reconnected with him. He told me her his band was not able to play the song she selected and Bea kind of felt bad that she had dragged this boy here to help her sing it. 


Then Clyde pulled her over to the side and asked her; "What is he doing here?" She told him; "Well he is going to sing the song with me." Clyde retorted, "You don't want to be hanging around that kind of riff raff it will present a bad image." I respected his opinion, but it did sound kind of prejudice of him.


Bea stepped on his stage and sang Me And Bobby McGee by Janis Joplin and then Clyde asked her if she can sing anything else. Bea rambled off a bunch of other songs she knew and he picked a song by George Michael, Faith. 


Bea felt very comfortable and in her element on that stage. It finally seemed as if she found her calling. The only question now was, who is going to be my band? Clyde had already developed his own band so in actuality he was  Bea's competition and after hearing her sing I believe he began to realize that as well, but he did give Bea some pertinent advice. Clyde told Bea, "B, you need to take the time to get to know your own sound and music. Put on your headphones and play it over and over until you feel what your singing, and believe the message your willing to portray."


After Bea left the ringside and drove my friend back home Bea kept thinking about the advice Clyde gave her  and she acknowledged his theory to be genuine and true. That is exactly what Bea did and she followed up with a text message to thank him.


B: Hey Clyde, I just wanted to say Thank you very much for inviting me to your gig last night. Not many musicians allow that especially lead singers in bands. I really appreciate it, I do. I really needed an outlet and it felt awesome. I feel like my old self again. I should start working on some creative songs of my own. Anytime you make an appearance please text me and I'll try to make It.             Thanks again                     B


Bea's experience was very genuine. Her creative music venture blossomed from there


Bea was so inspired and feeling all her emotions intensely. All her happiness, sadness excitement, triump, courage, and strength. She had a vision of her old dreams submerging to the surface. 


Bea became inspired to write again and to create lyrics. She had the urge to branch out and collaborate with other musicians to blend these lyrics with others music. Bea started blending her lyrics over other musician's tracks on soundcloud and discovered her creative collaborative expression and this felt liberating. 

Bea then began to question herself. Whatever happened to my dream of becoming a singer?


Bea prayed about it and GOD answered her by calling her back in and showing me that it is never too late. Bea realized then that what she needed was to move forward and embrace her gift to transcend a very important message that needed to be heard. 


Lyrics and melody's started coming out of nowhere. She would be in the shower and a song would come to her. She had to jump out of the shower and write it down before she forgot it, until Bea realized that she could use her voice recorder to catch the lyrics. It was like she was encompassing a spiritual awakening, and she desired to share it with the world. How? Was the question.  


Bea started branching out and meeting other musicians in the community. One gentleman, Clyde, she met on first Friday in St. Petersburg. He was already becoming a prominent musician there. Bea decided to call him and get together to see if she still had the spark to perform.


She first set out on her journey to a hot spot called Mad Hatters Ethnobotanical Tea Bar, which was the first kava and karaton bar she had ever encountered. That place has an amazing staff and very inviting atmosphere. She got a hooka and found the expertise of the staff helpful and highly recommend for anyone first trying kava. They made it a very chill experience. 


As she sat enjoying the ambiance and the hooka that was purchased, a young gentleman approached her. I don't recall his name, but he shared with her his gift of musical expression as well, and Bea asked him if he wanted to perform with her tonight. He agreed and we learned a song by Deelite, Grove Is In The Heart.


She sent a text message to Clyde... 


B: What club you at again?


Clyde: Heading to ringside right now, 2nd and central.


Bea told her friend and they both jumped on the scooter and headed downtown. They both sat at the bar and Bea shot Clyde another text.


B: I'm here now


Clyde : Where are you? Haha..I'm sitting out front, didn't see you inside. I guess text me when you're really there lol...


Bea  looked around and didn't see him.  Bea thought to herself.... is this a joke? Well I will step outside and scope it out. 


Bea didn't see Clyde and sent him another text.


B: Im outside. Where r you?


Finally Clyde walked into the bar and Bea reconnected with him. He told me her his band was not able to play the song she selected and Bea kind of felt bad that she had dragged this boy here to help her sing it. 


Then Clyde pulled her over to the side and asked her; "What is he doing here?" She told him; "Well he is going to sing the song with me." Clyde retorted, "You don't want to be hanging around that kind of riff raff it will present a bad image." I respected his opinion, but it did sound kind of prejudice of him.


Bea stepped on his stage and sang Me And Bobby McGee by Janis Joplin and then Clyde asked her if she can sing anything else. Bea rambled off a bunch of other songs she knew and he picked a song by George Michael, Faith. 


Bea felt very comfortable and in her element on that stage. It finally seemed as if she found her calling. The only question now was, who is going to be my band? Clyde had already developed his own band so in actuality he was  Bea's competition and after hearing her sing I believe he began to realize that as well, but he did give Bea some pertinent advice. Clyde told Bea, "B, you need to take the time to get to know your own sound and music. Put on your headphones and play it over and over until you feel what your singing, and believe the message your willing to portray."


After Bea left the ringside and drove my friend back home Bea kept thinking about the advice Clyde gave her  and she acknowledged his theory to be genuine and true. That is exactly what Bea did and she followed up with a text message to thank him.


B: Hey Clyde, I just wanted to say Thank you very much for inviting me to your gig last night. Not many musicians allow that especially lead singers in bands. I really appreciate it, I do. I really needed an outlet and it felt awesome. I feel like my old self again. I should start working on some creative songs of my own. Anytime you make an appearance please text me and I'll try to make It.             Thanks again                     B


Bea's experience was very genuine. Her creative music venture blossomed from there