Chapter 41- The Truth Comes Out

05/29/2015

I told Saul the truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me GOD. I told him how I had fallen in love with Primo. 

Saul said, "Primo won't ever love you. He doesn't even have a heart. He doesn't even know how to love himself." 

Saul was just trying to deter me from following my heart. I knew deep down Primo had a big heart and I know he loved himself more than he probably should. Whether he was capable of loving me, well I was determined to find out the truth. I was free to just being me. I felt so good for once, like I was finally living my life to its true potential. I was so happy that I was floating on cloud 9, and Primo was being released from jail in 3 more days, and I couldn't wait to tell him in person how I really felt.

06/03/2015

I crawled out of bed and I left that morning knowing that Primo was going to be released from jail in just a few hours. I couldn't sleep anyway because I was feeling anxious. I just wanted to see him really and give him a huge hug. I still wasn't really sure about telling him how much I loved him, but I figuered that would come out in due time. It was 5am and I was hoping he would get out before 7am when the kids got ready for school, but Primo didn't. Later that day I found out that his father picked him up.

I hurried to get the boys off to school and then rushed home to get all dressed up for Primo to see me. He answered the door and I believe he likey. I was wearing my silk dress and white heels with the gold trim. He seemed to be tired so he layed back down on the couch. I had absolutely no inhibitions any longer for now I was a free woman. I layed right on top of him and I told him that I missed him. He held me and I know this caught him off gaurd a bit. He finally had a chance to smell  me and feel my body once again. Primo started to get a hard on. Then I smelled him and he did not smell very good so I told him, 

B: "Primo you stink. Go wash your ass and lets get out of here and go shopping." 

He jumped up got all excited and went in the shower. I followed him and kept talking to him as he took a shower. I asked him, 

B: "Did you get my letters?" 

Primo stated he did and said,

Primo: "Yeah B, what was that all about?" 

Then I mentioned,

B: "I was bored and I really really missed you. Why didn't you write back?" 

Primo said, "B I can't write, but I can draw. I'll show you as soon as I get out." 

As he said that I dropped my dress down to the floor and told him that, 

B: "I've been working out just for you. How do I look babe, I dropped 20 lbs?"

Then I opened the shower curtain to see his body all wet, soapy, and dripping from his biceps. He was so totally hot and showing me a nice view of his cute little buns. I twirled around so he could get a good view of my bum as well. Then I got back to being dressed allowing him to finish up his shower and stew for a few minutes about what he just saw. It didn't take him long. When he walked out he instantly made me a proposition saying,

Primo: "I will fuck you if you buy me a phone. " I retorded, 

B:"No thank you, you would fuck me either way you dog!" 

He was trying really hard to be convincing by telling me, 

Primo: "No really B let's go. Right here, right now." 

I said,

B: "Really dude? On your parents bed. No way!" 

Then I changed the subject. Now looking back I should have went for it, but I didn't want to seem too easy. I like teasing and being chased.

I filled Primo in on a new business proposition that I had for him. I wanted to go all in with just him 50/50. I started a website platform called Boston Auto Detailing and spent $100 on the flyers. I was starting to network and make connections. Unfortunately, all that time, money, and patience was wasted because we never got it up and running.

Then we went food shopping. I could tell he was undressing me with his eyes and I told him to get whatever he wanted. Mistakenly another customer thought we were a couple and he called me babe. I had an instant flashback of when we were together before and I had to run around looking for a bathroom because I was pregnant. It was almost like we were picking up right where we had left off. As we approached the checkout counter he noticed my card. He was like, 

Primo: "B what's that?" 

It had his last name on it. I told him, 

B: "Food stamp's." 

It must have all of a sudden dawned on him that my last name was Sanchez because I was still married to his brother and that I had no money, but only food stamps. Which was true for I spent my last dollar paying off his lawyer and stocking up his canteen in jail.

There was a possibility that he had been contemplating about me getting divorced, but in my mind I was thinking what the fuck is the point if I am just going to turn around and be with him? At least then I can still carry his name and we won't even have to get married and it would be an easy fix just change the first name on the marriage certificate we won't even have to pay a dime if we wish. Too funny, but true.

Then after we got back to the house who shows up walking through the door but Saul. Saul start's to bitch me out, 

Saul: "What are you doing here?" 

I said, 

B: "What does it look like? I'm seeing Primo." As I said that Primo stood up and walked into the other room. 

Saul said, "Well this is my parents house and your not allowed to be here. My brother should not have let you in." 

I told Saul, 

B: "Why because you say so? Well he did because he is his own man and makes his own decisions and is not an asshole like you. It is a free country mano. I don't know who the hell you think you are. Right Primo?" 

Primo stated, "I am out of this B." 

I said, B: "No, no, no, no, no you my friend are very much a part of this I think it is about time we all sit down and discussed exactly what we all should have said a long time ago."

Primo changed the subject by showing off his drawings. The first drawing I saw was of me, but he quickly covered it up so Saul didn't see it. I briefly caught a glimpse of it remembering a photo of me that I sent him in jail. I was really glad he used me as one of his muises, that was really sweet and made me feel super special. I wish I could have looked at it a little bit longer, but I understood what he was trying to do.

Primo then asked, "What is going on between you two?" 

I answered, 

B: "I broke it off with your brother a few days ago." 

Primo said, "What , but why?" 

Saul retorded, "What, you haven't heard yet? She is in love with you mano." 

I mumbled, 

B: "Just terrific! This is not exactly the way I intended to tell him."

B pushed, "Please, spare me. Let's not beat around the bush like the both of you didn't know. Enough with the games, you have both been playing me for a very long time let's put all the cards on the table like the grown adults we are for everyone to see. I am sick of lying to myself and everyone else. Let's stop sneaking around and be honest with eachother." 

Then B directed her attention towards Saul, 

B: "Saul I never meant to hurt you, but you know that it is no surprise that I have slept with your brother. First of all you knew about it from the beginning  11 years ago  and acted like you forgave me, then threw it in my face every second you had a chance." 

Then she directed her attention to Primo 

B: "Primo you picked up the brunt of making me happy where your brother was lacking it was like having the best of both worlds. If I could put you both into one body you would be the perfect man for me."

Then Saul started fucking around with our heads saying, 

Saul: "OK what do you want? You want the both of us? You want to have a threesome?" 

I was like, 

B:"Serious Saul? Nevermind, I need a drink I'm outta here." I looked over to Primo and said, "Are you coming?" 

Of course Saul had to add himself to the equation which made it virtually impossible to get Primo to myself. Then I asked the question, 

B: "Babe?" 

and they both answered. 

Shit! 

All of a sudden it dawned on me that I have to give Primo his very own nickname. I thought about it and named him babycakes because I love him like a fat kid loves cake. I also want my cake and ice cream, and I like to get to eat it too. Oh no, what did I get myself into? Well it is too late now. What's done is done and there is no turning back.

This I am regrettfully telling you now was the biggest mistake of my life getting involved with two brothers at the same time. My karmic debt has been paid. It's over.