01/01/2015
Dear Lord,
Father I come to you now beseeching your advice about my husband Saul. First and foremost Please forgive him father for he not know what he has done to us...he is sick and twisted when he is under the influence of alcohol. I believe he is an alcoholic and is in need of help. Please, break through his barriers to help him accept his illness and find a way to receive that help so we can continue to be a family. I don't want to lose him. I just would like to see him get better and stop all this violence.
Should I take him back father so I can set him on the right path to getting sober? My children have been asking for their father and it seems rather selfish of me to deny them that right. I feel bad and I want to do the right thing but I am not sure what that is. Please give me a sign and let me know how to proceed...........
I went to church and prayed for a long time and all the messages I received from the spirit were to let him go and learn for himself. I wish I would have listened to my gut. I took him back instead of following my intuition because he was my husband which I made a vow through sickness and health till death do us part and that meant the world to me. I wasn't about to abandon my husband when he was going through such a difficult time in his life. He needed my help, I wasn't going to deny that.
I did appreciate everything he did for this family and how he visited me almost every night I was in the hospital and stood by me when I needed help. He tried his best to be a good provider. He was ok at being a father and husband but at least he tried. Maybe he was not trying his best but was making an effort to change and showing slim improvements which was better than nothing.
When we discussed what changes that needed to be made I set some stipulations that had to be abided in order for us to live together.
First, no alcohol was allowed in the house.
Second, He needed to attend some meetings.
Third, Saul was not allowed to be around the kids when he was drinking so if he ended up intoxicated he was not allowed to come home.
My father has not left us astray but has chosen the word to be revealed.
The Lord anointed my eyes: I went, I washed, I saw and I believed in GOD.
- John 9:11
As Jesus passed by he saw a man blind from birth. His disciple's asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" Jesus answered, "Neither he nor his parents sinned; it is so the works of GOD might be made visible through him. We have to do the works of the one who sent me while it is day. Night is coming when no one can work. While I am in the world, I am the light of the world." When he has said this, he spat on the ground and made clay with the saliva, and smeared the clay on his eyes, and said to him, "Go wash in the pool of Siloam." So he went and washed, and came back able to see. - John 9:1-41
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