Chapter 54- Family Conspiracy - Third Month

August 2015

B: "This is where things tend to get very complicated so you have to pay attention. Now I am about to put you in my shoes. Imagine yourself a single mother being harassed by your mother-in-law, brother-in-law, father-in-law, roomate, and husband who didn't even bother to introduce the paramour. No, she just pops in to introduce herself to top the icing on the cake. This is how I found out he was back with her and she was taking care of my kid's."

B had already lost her job and she texted Saul so she could get the scooter to find a way to getting to another job. Of course Saul had to make it impossible.

8/4/2015
Text messages to Saul from B.......

Saul: The scooter is out of commission and it is raining.

B: I'll take it into Tropical Scooters. We still have warranty on it.

Saul: It is going to rain all week.

B: We should take care of it while the warranty is still in place and I need wheels.

Saul: I will take it myself on Saturday. Can you answer? I am trying to call you. My mom is going to pick up the kid's tomorrow. If you keep it up you will keep the kid's and I won't pick them up. Then you are going to lose your job, and you will have to get daycare. You don't appreciate shit that I do.

B: What is your problem? I was on a very important phone call with Pat and Jr's insurance company. I am trying to set up their Dr. appointments. The bike has a flat tire, and I was trying to help get it fixed so we can have it for another year. Since your being a dick why don't you have custody. I will join the Navy, get deployed, and die. Cuz as I see it you have no idea as how to respect other's, not the other way around so don't get it twisted....... The world doesn't always have to revolve around Saul. I am not a dick like you, who cuts people off, and doesn't answer their calls just to be a asshole. I made you some Portuguese soup just for you, to show my appreciation. I thought you would be grateful. Your mom wouldn't have had to watch the kid's at all if you ever set aside the time to sit down and discuss with me at ANY time what we were going to do with our kids, and discuss with me option's for childcare. No, instead you decided to make those decision's without me, and cut me out of my children's lives completely.  No, you chose rather to commit adultery and have someone else raise my kid's, instead of their own mother. Now you bust your ass, and hurt your ankle. Serves you right for being a two timing son of a bitch.

Saul: I just want you to get into a fucking accident. Believe it or not I care what happens to so don't Fuck with me. Fuck off. (This message was shown to Judge Pierce sixth judicial district court FL. who denied me an injunction for protection on 9/3/15)

08/05/2015

Saul: My mom will pick up the kid's at 2pm have them ready. So you don't want Missy to drop off the kid's? Are you talking about my mom? She don't want to worry about looking at your nasty grill? She could care less about you.

08/06/2015

On this night B went out of her way to get the scooter back. If she had known all the animosity it was going to cause she would have left well enough alone. She had learned of  Saul's attempt to move on with Emma. Of course it hurt. It always does when someone's man chooses another woman over their wife. B just didn't think that it would cost them everything they had worked so hard for over the past 11 years. She rolled up with Missy to Saul's place to scope out the truth about this scooter and where her kid's were staying. B saw a few things indicating that she was in the right place, such as the kid's and Saul's belongings. Then she saw the scooter. Saul wasn't lying about it being out of commission because it wouldn't start. B couldn't believe that Saul was being truthful for once.

The neighbor across the street started questioning her at one o' clock in the morning.

Neighbor: "What are you doing?"

B said:  "This is my scooter I am taking it home."

The neighbor says:  "Oh no its not."

B said, "Saul is my husband, I am Mrs. Sanchez."

Then the man stole the key out of the ignition and runs off with it.

B pushed the scooter over to Missy telling her what had just occurred. Then the man started walking back towards her shirtless with two other hoodlums and B panicked and told Missy, "Push the scooter with the car, Just Do It!" Missy was just as scared and obeyed. They both just wanted to get to a safe place. Luckily, the scooter coasted and there was nobody else on the road that night.

For a minute B felt liberated just coasting along and would have probably made it all the way home if they didn't get pulled over by the police, who insisted that B call Saul to get the whole story. Sure enough Saul made an appearance with Emma who confirmed that the title of the scooter was in B's name and that it belonged to her.

As B watched the two of them walking away holding hands it all of a sudden hit her. She thought, (He left me for that piece of trash. Sure didn't take him long. Maybe this must have been his plan all along. Really didn't see it coming.)

B's little juvenile move cost her a $200 ticket and a $60 tow. She thought,

(At least I had a few more months with my scooter Lance Armstrong, though. It was worth the trip. I am almost positive that Saul aimed to destroy me whether I took that damn scooter or not because now he had Emma to teach him how to work around the court system and allow the set up to begin.)

08/07/2015

Saul: I'm including the house key, the black key to the safe, the other small key is for the lock on the fence, and the key to the scooter. I'm including Missy cuz she got herself involved by pushing the scooter the other night. I'm taking the boys to a water park.

B: Can I see my boys please?

Saul: I will bring the kid's in 15 min, but you better be home.

Saul: On my way with the kid's.

B really didn't know what Saul's deal was because she was always home for her kid's. He was acting like a complete ass on text, but when he would show up at the house he would be all sweet and sincere. It was really confusing her. He kept on trying to grope her and be sexual. She would push him away and blow him off.

Text message to B from Emma.

Emma: Hi Bea. It's Emma
I just wanted to contact you because I've been through a divorce & I know what you are both going thru. I don't know you so I'm not forming an opinion of you. Always 3 sides to every story, But I hope you & Saul can be civil & adults because now it's only about those 2 wonderful boys. I'm doing what I can to make him understand what's right here, And I'm not, & never will try to take your place with the boys, but I do care about them & love them.

B: last time I checked a marriage only takes two to Tango. Not one, two, and three his Mistress. Do you really? Did you have another woman split up your marriage too, and kidnapp your kid's and make them call her their mommy? Did she refuse  to let your kids or husband talk to you? That is exactly what you did to me you manipulative two faced heffa. I sure would love it if that karma would start falling off right about now and onto you. Thanks to you ruining my family not a day goes by that I don't wake up or go to sleep with tears in my eyes. Good luck with that because you are going to need it.

08/08/2015

Saul: I will be picking up the kid's after just waiting for the rain to calm down. We have a flood watch up this way.

Then an hour lator B got this message which clarifies the above message was just a diversion so he can file an injunction for protection and threaten B with it. Although B had to be into work at 3pm so Missy agreed to watch the boys till Saul arrived so B wouldn't be late. Found out after work later that Missy went into her phone and erased some of Saul's messages he had sent to B. Saul wanted to make it appear as if B was being uncooperative and aggressive, but the bitch didn't realize B had CM Backup on her phone.  So, their little sham backfired. They made several failed attempts, but B was a do gooder, she very rarely broke any laws so they were definitely reaching. At this point B figuered out that they were all conspiring against her, and she was on her own.

B received this text from Saul at 3:17pm.

Saul: If you don't give me the kids now I will be calling the cops.

B: Missy has them stupid.

Saul: listen, cops are to pick you up at work for not wanting to give me the kid's, now it is war. I love how you say you have dirt on me, let's get down with the James, cuz you are not taking the kid's to MASS, over my dead body, u r stuck in Florida. Whatever dirt you think you have show it, cuz I ain't going to let you take the kid's that easily, there are laws. You think you are smart, I will see you in court August 20 at 9am. Your own mother and kid's want nothing to do with you cuz you don't want to be a mother to them. I will be their mom and along with Emma, cuz you are mentally distorded. By the way, you are in for a rude awakening. I told you I will do everything in my power to follow you. You think you can get away with things? Keep it up, and I will press charges against you for tresspassing at my home at 2:30 in the morning cuz I got witnesses. Then you will know what going to jail is about. Even the cop asked me to press charges against you and I said NO.
I LOVE IT HOW JR. CALLS EMMA MOMMY, CUZ SHE IS MORE OF A MOTHER TO THEM THAN YOU WILL EVER BE FOR PAT AND JR, LOL. (This is the furthest from the truth because I was an awesome mom. Just ask my kid's, that's if they even remember me:()

B prayed: "Please GOD let this man who once cared see past his evil ways to love and stop the pain in our lives. Yes, I know I am not an angel, but I am trying to overcome all that I have endured and suffered. Just help me please, help me be whole again. help me be strong for my babies, cuz they need me and I need them. I promise I won't let you down again Lord. I will do your work. I will spread your love and word to those in need, I will honor and respect your commandments, just don't allow this man to hurt us no more. If there was justice in this world let it be now. For I am a good person, a loving mother, who has devoted my whole life to caring for others, but in my darkest hour who's there for me? I don't see them. I don't hear them calling, but I feel a presence so I know I'm not alone entirely. It would be nice if I could feel an embrace or something. I just need a sign."

B: I am just begging you to let this go......don't you think you hurt the kids and I enough with the bullshit head games? I'm over it. Just let us be happy for once. I'm tired of fighting and trying to prove my love to your family. My kids are tired of being tossed around they need their mother and I need them. I hate seeing them like this. Their dressed like orphans, no clothes or nice shoes. Their things all in shambles. They need routine, consistency, medical care and therapy. You don't care about them do you? All u have ever cared about is hurting me. This is not war anymore, this is our lives. It's not about money or support anymore. This is about them. Their happiness and being loved. Do you really think they feel that way when they hear you angrily talking shit about me? That is why I needed to leave you, my kids shouldn't have to feel that kind of hatred and tension no more. Already I am feeling the relief of you being somebody else's headache. My poor kids are still dealing with it. This is just not right. They deserve to be loved, not constantly rediculed. To know that the people in their lives care about them and love them. You go around telling them I don't love them. HOW DARE YOU. I would never feed their heads with such bullshit. That hurts them and turns them into assholes like you. C'mon Saul just stop with the hurting. Are you really that heartless?...I know your not. I know you will do what is right in the end. I have more to offer in the end and you know it. If only you would grow up and see it. We really don't need to make this an ugly battle.

Saul: You R right I want to be civil as well. Yes, I dont want to hurt you or them, I always tell the kids that their mommy loves them very much. We can squash this now between us, you can have your kids everyday, but we need to find Jr. day care,  cuz your work hours are crazy. Yes, i will do things right. You know I m not a cold hearted bastard.

B: Anything you gotta talk about you can do it through a text. I don't need you flaunting your mistress around me and the kids. Ok...plz drop the boyz off Tuesday and that's that.

Saul: OK

Text message from Emma to B........

B: Just so you know that a marriage is between two people bitch not three. That two timing asshole is still my husband, and ur still his bitch. So no I don't have to incude u in shit, especially when he has been trying to fuck me behind ur back stupid Ho. Karma is a bitch, and ur gonna learn the hard way. Saul will always be a lying, two timing, abusive, alcoholic, he will use and abuse u just like he did me and our kids. Cuz Saul don't know how to love nobody but his alcohol. His family, they will never accept u or ur kids. Like I said before, Good Luck with that.

Emma: If he's so horrible then why did you stay with him for so long?

B: I was in love with Primo and my baby needed his father. As u can see Saul was only man enough to step up to the plate, and although he knew about us, I think it may have been a trap to get even with the three of us.

Emma: Why be with him if ur in love with his brother?
Who's kids are they really?
Saul or Primo's?
I can't believe u have the nerve to call me a whore when I've done absolutely nothing, but u were the one fucking his brother.
Maybe if you would of ended things sooner you would of had the common sense to stop everything like the hell you are saying you went through. Not after 11 years you low life prostitue. At least I know who my kids father is, unlike you cheap whore fucking with his nasty brother. Have class, if you know what that is. lol.

B: You should talk bitch. Your the one sleeping with a married man STILL, and u have fucken known about it from the start or no, maybe the pregnancy test was anothers mans kid? People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.
Your most definitely a Ho and sleeping with the biggest HO of them all. Why do you think I tossed you my leftover? Because I was getting afraid of what I might catch. Good luck with the herpes, mersa, and GOD knows what else. Your even more ignorant then I thought. You all deserve each other. My kids deserve a better life than the one you think you can give them. They need to be around family who love them, and a house they can grow up in, and care that only I can provide. The only reason why I've been allowing Saul to see them is because I made a promise to him 11 years ago as a friend that I would never keep him away from them and I kept that promise.

08/11/2015

Saul: On my way with boys, have door unlocked, so they can come in.

This morning B was having second thoughts about making peace with Saul for the sake of the kids. When he came into the house she asked him if they could sit down and talk. Saul had to go to work and he kept avoiding the conversation. Later that day B's car broke down and she called Saul for an assist.

Emma: Thanks you piece of shit. Just proved you can't take care of yourself or your kids And he's fucking driving MY CAR to rescue YOU! Remember that next time you call me his fucking mistress.

This night B finally touched base. She told Saul about losing her job, how everything was chaotic, how she was not doing well, and she started crying on his shoulder. She did the lean in on the kiss, and they just fell into place with eachother.

B asked, "What about Emma?Do you love her?"

Saul said, "I care about her, but I love you. Your my girl, and this is my pussy."

B told Saul, "No she is your girl and I am your wife."

Saul ripped B's pants off and went down on B. It was over before it even started, it never did take Saul long. B had tears in her eyes the whole time. It even confused Jr. because when he saw them together he instantly ran over to them shouting "mommy, daddy, mommy, daddy" which confused him forever more.

Then Saul said, "I don't know why I did that?"

B said, "I miss my family."

Saul said, "What is done is done, there is no going back."

Honestly at that moment B felt more violated than being raped. Not only was her life completely shattered and tarnished, but she lost all dignity or love that she ever held for that man in that single moment. He fucked with her head so hard. It made everything inside her wanna crawl out of her skin. B was confused to the point she couldn't even speak English so she began sneaking about texting Saul in Spanish, which lasted like a whole 3 hour's.  Saul caught on and at first it was fun, but she couldn't hold back for long. She had to let the cat out of the bag, but she didn't know who she was letting it out to...Saul or Emma.

Saul: Did Isaiah make it home?

B: Si

Saul: Ok thanks.

Saul: What

B: Bien o No bien?

Saul: Trevor's I thought you said he is staying over there?

Saul: What?

B: :)

Saul: I m going to sleep good night.

B: Buenos Noches

Saul: Bye

B: Bien?

Saul: yup

B: thank you babe.

Saul: plz stop

B: Then why did you marry me? I miss my family...I can't help the way I feel.

Saul: My mistake for marrying you.
Happy with Emma.

08/12/2015

B: My mistake too. I guess I don't get 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, and 6th chances like I gave you? Do you know why I did that? I guess Jr. won't have mommy daddy no more. There never was respect to begin with. You never loved me, did you? I miss my family so much, and I see it falling apart. I never wanted this.... I just wanted to be loved, for my children to feel loved by their family. I never wanted someone else raising my kids. It hurts.... my heart can't take this. I've been feeling this pain for years ever since you slept with her and dismissed me altogether. We came Florida to make a home with our family, and then you gave up on me. What kind of person does that? I was looking back on all the moments we shared, and I think our happiest times were here in Florida. I thought we were good. I was looking at the messages in my old phone. Back from march 2014, we were looking at houses with Craig. Were you seeing her then? Cuz you were staying out late a lot. You said you were hanging out with work buddies. I mean really, how long was this going on for? I think I deserve the truth for once. I told you the truth... thats if u can tell the truth ever. NEVERmind I know where I stand in your heart. I gave you everything. This is how you repay me? I payed your debt instead of mine, and you put us in even more debt. As long as I am with you I will never flourish, and neither will our kids. Sure I have mixed emotions, you are still my husband..I thought we had dreams, and I saw you tried, but us was never enough for you. I guess u needed more than what I could give you, but I was and still am doing right at this moment by myself. As long as you have my  kid's in your care I will never be out of your life, so remember that the next time you try to move on with your life. For this relationship u think u have is toxic because of the way it started. Just like it is coming to me right now. It will come to u 3X fold. Don't come begging when shit starts to fall apart cuz I am not taking u back this time. I'm heading in a better direction. My luck is about to change I can feel it. Thanks for the encouragement yesterday, I needed that. I just forgot that I used to love you. ok. I'm sorry.

Saul: Thanks
No i was not sleeping with her then. I lied to her, she had no idea we were together & when you called, she wouldn't talk to me. Now GOD has given me a second chance with her, and she's everything any man could ever want. I love her, and want to be with her forever. If you can't understand that then that's your problem. Leave it alone. We have kids together, but that's ALL
No more calling or texting b.s.
No, i never loved you,
Just stayed around for the kids. I want a divorce so i can marry Emma.
I will drop off Jr. tomorrow morning and pick up the boys on Saturday.

08/13/2015

Saul: When do you want Jr. tonight or in the morning? I'm not trying to control you just trying to find out when you want him back, if not I will drop him off Friday morning. That's all.

B: According to this text you said what you were going to do. So follow through this time. Don't play games and call the cops like I said u couldn't come see ur kids. You can see your kids anytime. I just don't want them around her. Primo, Emma, and you are the one's keeping u from ur kids. Not me. Wake up.
Bring me my baby.

Saul: I will drop him off tonight and I will pick them up on Saturday. Too bad if they are with me she will be around them, not you're choice dont make things hard or we will go to court you cannot keep the kids away from me. Dont play again.

B: I got served your papers today so I guess we are going to court now and the truth will come out, GOD and justice will finally prevail, and everyone will know who the Sanchez's really are and she will never be one.

Saul: Better yet you will get Jr. in the morning I'm not going to go back and forth. Unless you want him today have Missy pick him up. Ok you asked for it. You really want to go to court? I can still drop the case. We can fix it between us, or we will see each other in court.

B: See what I mean, never been a man of your word. Always switching shit around to fuck with my head. You will never change your ways. So predictable.

Saul: Everyone will know what Bea Audette is all about, and you will stop being a Sanchez,  you spit in our last name by your actions. I guess you don't want to be civil. You want to go to court I will see you in court. Now I will ask for full custody since you can't even keep a job. What makes you think you can handle both kids due to your mental state?
Well you are trying to tell me what to do. All I want is to be civil you really want to go to court? I dont.

B: You are the one who took my heart, bit it, chewed it, and spit on your kids name and now you want to do the same with this witch? What's her deal? Why are you rushing into this trap with her? What is she trying to prove?

Saul: If I'm rushing into things is not your freakin problem. Stop trying to claim lost territory. Your piss off because Primo doesn't want anything to do with you, nobody is trying to prove anything. Trap? You are trapping yourself cuz nobody wants anything to do with you. You and your pshyco way, like stalking my brother, that's why you are by yourself. You hurt me by telling me that you have loved me. You don't even know who the hell you love.

Emma: I'm only going to say this once, Stop harassing Saul and me, he wants ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU except be there for the boys.
We are happy and starting a life together.
Divorce papers will be coming your way very shortly.

B: Well I ain't signing them so I guess your going to be stuck being his mistress.

Emma: You don't have a choice. When they are filed you have so many days to respond or it goes into default.

B: How many days will that be little miss know it all?

Emma: Been through a divorce so I know exactly what I'm talking about.
You will have 20 days.
Florida is a no fault divorce state. They do shared parenting.

B: Well see about that, and how much is that going to cost u? Cause I know he ain't gonna pay for it.

Emma: Yes he will.
He's already going to put a restraining order on you
Want a harassment charge also?
Want DCF to come pay you a visit?
Grow up! It's over between Saul & you.

B: Well ok, if it's over then why did he cum in me the other night and licked my pussy and tell me I'm still his girl??? I told him I'm not his girl, but his wife and he let me know that I still have a golden pussy. How does it feel now bitch? Once a cheat always a cheat.
GOLDEN!!!

Emma: I don't believe you.
Prove it

08/13/2015
Text message from B to Saul....

B: I really don't want any of this, but your HO is fucking shit up as usual. She called DCF on me, now the cops just left and saw the food in the fridge. The kids clean clothes I bought them for school, hung up nice and neat, and toys, and storage bins of our belongings.
Please bring me my baby.
Your not mine. You were never mine. You made that abundantly clear.

Saul: You get your baby tomorrow morning.

B: Do you want me dead? Is that why you are doing this? You know how to push those buttons. That's the only thing I can think of as to why your both doing this to me.

Saul: You are right I'm not yours, I'm EMMA'S NOW AND FOREVER. Send Missy to get him. He is at my mothers.

B: Good she can have u and all the shit u stand for. Which is nothing to me.

Saul: No, I Don't wish.
I been asking you to be civil, but don't listen. Plz grow at least for the children. I don't wish for u to be dead, I m begging you to plz stop this nonsense.

B: How am I supposed to move on when all you do is fuck with my head, and make everything in my life a power struggle. I'm tired Saul. I need a clean slate. I'm not going to get ahead at this rate. It hurts me too much to see us fall apart. It just doesn't feel right.
Ok I'll stop .......I'll leave you all alone. I'm out.

Saul: You do what you got to.
You take the kids out of state you will be in big trouble, especially now since you've been served.

Then not even a hour lator B is getting harrassed by the other one. Tag teaming action, and like a fool B played right into it. Instead of spending her last precious moments with her kid's.

B: "I am such an idiot. Son your mommy is stupid. I fell for daddies lies, and married the wrong man. I really hope he is not your biological father so you and I can both be Audette's together someday. That's why I gave you my name. I should have gave your brother my name too, but at the time I truly believed we were going to all be a happy family forever. Which probably justifies your father's reasoning for me being distorted, but a mother can dream of the best for her children. I am just sorry that I couldn't make that dream come true for you. Hopefully in the near future I can set the barr higher and have all of us living a lot better."

Emma- When you have proof you can show me. You're just a lying whore trying to cause problems.

B: Look who is talking? Said the mistress to his wife. Lol. I am entitled.
The proof is written all over his face although he will deny it. That's what he does best. Why didn't you smell his dick the other night isn't that why u kept calling when he was fucking me cuz deep inside you know the truth. Has he bought you a ring? He may never. Don't be surprised if he pawns it.

Emma: First of all whore I NEVER called him that night
He was calling me because he knew I was upset.
Again, you have no proof so grow up.
And we're talking about having a baby.
If there is a next time then get proof not words cause your words don't mean shit to me.
He's already asked me to have a baby and go off the pill.
No ring yet
Doesn't have to be one
Marriage is a piece of paper
True love is in the heart & soul.
Maybe you're right.
Maybe I'm just a fool.
If he does want you & something happens then I want proof
You're not dumb
Forward me texts
Take pics or video

Emma 2:23 am: Going to call the cops right now

PINELLAS COUNTY SHERIFF'S OFFICE
Case Master Report SO15-347237
Date Initiated 08/14/2015

Upon arrival I was unable to locate the female subject. I made contact with the complainant, Saul Sanchez, who advised that his
ex-wife, Bea Sachez, had been banging on his front door and yelling for him to give her their child. She did not enter the residence or cause any damage to Saul’s property. He requested the incident be documented.
I contacted Bea via telephone. She advised that she was at home and was asleep next to her child prior to my phone call. She stated she is not able to drive and denied going to
Saul’s residence.

Disposition: Case Closed; Solved NonCriminal


08/14/2015

Saul: On my way with Jr.

B: Why did I get a phone call from the police at 2:45 am?

Saul: Cuz someone thought you came by my house  again. Some girl was fighting out at 2:30 in the morning with her boy, and the neighbors taught it was you. They asked me if it was you, and I told the cops I did not see you, but it could of been you cuz she was saying give me my fucking kid. Don't worry about it, you are clear. I did not see who it was, but I heard a female banging and screaming, give me my fucking kid.
I will be picking up the boys around 10Am tomorrow, plz have them ready, taking them to a pool party.

B: Ok, well I was asleep at home lying next to Isaiah. I haven't left the house all week, thanks to your so called girlfriend, I missed my job interview because a DCF investigator is claiming that someone said I don't feed and take care of my kids. Isaiah talked to the guy too. I took a drug test too, and I passed by the way, so you can let the judge know how your wasting the taxpayers money by making false accusations and targeting me like this, for I am a good mother. I am just feeling a little abandoned at the moment. The trash just piles up, and so does the b.s. from you. You know it's been a struggle and all you can do is fuck me. What a great husband...wow!

B: BTW What is Emma the next Nicole Hilton? She is going to have u locked up and put away in no time. Guarantee she'll have ur ass deported in less than a year. I don't know Saul I would think twice if I were you. Just coming from a friend's perspective. You can do what you want, but I wouldn't b trying to have no babies. Just sayin. Seems kinda weird.

Emma: Saul just told me that he's going to make his divorce fast & he wants to marry me & have a baby
Haha whore bitch

08/15/2015

B: Honestly Saul, I was talking with Pat today and I asked him how he would feel if daddy married Emma and had a baby with her? He told me  "terrible" and Jr. is freaking out every time someone walks out the door. This is really a lot for the kids to handle right now. Maybe we should all slow down, put aside our differences, take a step back, and see how our actions are affecting them. Is this absolutely necessary? All these actions are they for the kids sake or for our own selfish reasons?
Look what Emma just texted me...

Emma: Saul just told me that he's going to make his divorce fast & he wants to marry me & have a baby
Haha whore bitch

She is playing us like fiddles, She is the one who is crazy, can't you see that? and Saul I'm sorry, but this is not the type of woman I want around my kids. Jesus, mary, mother of GOD and Escepulous alike can this man not see through his evil ways? Why is he still tryin to traumatize and hurt my children and me, please put yourself in their shoes? If your mother kicked ur father out, and not even a month later after living with her for a few weeks, was saying he was going to marry another woman while he was still married to your mom. I think that would really fucking piss you off. I mean I don't really care, I'm just really worried about how this is affecting Pat. Then he comes to find out that his father may not be his father. This must be really fucking with his head. I'm sorry, but I can't do this to Pat. I love him way too much. If you loved that boy at all you would STOP all this shit right now. You don't see me moving in with anybody and bringing all this baby mama drama around them. C'mon Saul, this is not cool.

Maybe u should b focusing on the kids in the here and now before you start making more. Besides I thought you said you were done after Liam. That means you won't be out of the clear until ur 60! That's pretty stupid....



To conclude this chapter we shall let all the evidence speak for itself so you can draw the most obvious conclusions. I did spellcheck a little and clarified the message here/there so it was clear. All of the texts and report's are genuine. You don't have to be a detective to put two and two together. Of course, after B showed Judge Pierce and Child Protective Investigator Mark Meridith these messages they were then referred to as irrelevant. Looking at the timeline and the form of conspiracy and harrassment being displayed, B was testifying to these text messages as being downright conclusive. B still has them there in her phone on her LG backup bitches! Now it is on the internet for all the world to see.... How dirty and corrupt motherfuckers can be.

JUST DOING MY BEST TO KEEPING IT REAL.

Chapter 46- Happy Birthday B!

06/13/2015

I can't say I didn't try to get a hold of Primo for weeks because I did,  but at some point I lost hope.

I gave up and said to myself if it is meant to be, and he is really my twin flame then it will be. He will somehow find his way back to me.

Another soul mate was catching my attention through Facebook just in the nick of time. It was destiny. An old friend from grade school. You know the one? The boy that was always getting sent to the principles office. I was always too shy to approach him back then. Do you believe that? Me? Shy?

His name was Zane and he hit me up right before my birthday for a date and I was relieved that I didn't have to spend it alone like I was going to.

I had a job interview which turned out good and I started to get ready for my date. I wasn't really sure how I should dress, but it was Florida so I could get away with something hot. I put on some high heeled strappy shoes and brought my flip flops just in case. I wore my pink halter top with my black sailor pants. Threw my hair up in a french twist and applied some makeup just in time for the bell to ring.

Who to my wondering eyes should appear, but somebody I haven't seen in over 20 years.

He had his shades on, and he was tall, dirty blonde. He was wearing boots with jeans and t- shirt. Still cute like I recall. I welcomed him in my home and offered him a drink. Zane declined and we exited. We decided to go to first night in downtown St. Pete. On the first Friday night of every month St. Petersburg shuts traffic down around the blocks where all the clubs are at so customer's can party safely.

As I stepped into my driveway I saw what Zane arrived in, but none other than a Harley Davidson.  Wow! No friggin way! This is my ultimate dream come true. Sportin a Hot ride, to a Hot spot, with a Hot guy, on my fucking Birthday, how fucking cool is this? Pinch me because I know I got to be fucking dreaming.

I just want to say thank you Zane from the bottom of my heart for making one of my dreams come true and I only wish I could have made one of those dreams a reality for you too, from the bottom of my heart it's true. Just between the two of us. We will always have this night to remember.

Like I said that night was a dream, from the two of us arriving at Applebee's and getting our picture snapped by random stranger's. To you opening the door and treating me like a lady the whole night, and catering to grabbing my shoes when I could no longer sport my heels. You were a complete gentlemen that night, and I am glad I met you Zane.

Thank you for coming into my life just in the nick of time, because I believed you may have saved it.

Chapter 31- Grand Mal Seizures

05/05/13

A year after I had Jr. My mom came to visit for his birthday and christening.

We had his christening at our family church in Clearwater at St. Catherine of Siena and I wanted my Aunt Mary to be Junior's godmother, but Saul thought it would be more appropriate for us to have a friend of the family be the godmother instead. Little did I know that this was a tactic to isolate us from our surrounding family. I want to apologize to my Aunt Mary for allowing this man to ever come between us. From the bottom of my heart you were always there for me before..... I'm truly sorry that I didn't fight on your behalf. I know now I should have.

Saul and I also found it appropriate to make Primo the godfather. In all faith the LORD works in mysterious ways. I didn't think Papitio was going to make it to the ceremony that day, but he showed up all dressed in black. He certainly stood out as the black sheep, but seemed honored to be a part of this experience. There was no doubt in my mind that I could count on Primo to stand up and be an excellent example of a father to my children. I guess I had more faith in him then he had in himself. Deeply indebted I was his biggest cheerleader, always inconspicuously cheering him on in the sidelines. Saul hated it. He used to say things to me like, "Your sweet Primo is coming over." As time went by I guess my feelings grew, it became harder to hide, and this became more obvious to people. I tried to suppress those feelings and bottle them up. I even tried despising Primo, and I know he did the same with me to, but the harder I tried the deeper I fell. 

Brie, she rented a hotel room with a beautiful view of Clearwater Beach at Pier 60. Of course Saul was working on getting plastered. It was Cinco de Mayo and he had just gotten his anklet removed from his DUI sentence. The first thing he does is takes off with Brie's rental car intoxicated to go get more booze. Pat, Brie, Primo, and I were having the time of our lives undergoing pillow fights and unaware of Saul’s agenda. I wish I could capture that moment in time, we were smiling, laughing, and a happy family. Times like these become rare nowadays. Primo was so sweet, he took it upon himself to swipe some cross earrings as a gift for Junior’s Christening present. It was thoughtful and we still have them in his keepsake box to this day. I am a sucker when it comes to memorabilia. Only because I know there will come a day where I am bound to forget it all.

01/04/2014

We went to the Hard Rock Casino in Tampa FL. I was the designated driver because I was never much of a drinker.

I was all dressed up to the hilt with my high heeled brown suede boots, and my sweater dress. We decided to stop at the Steak N Shake to grab a bite to eat on the way home. My mom was blasting the heat and I kept telling her that I was feeling claustrophobic, the whole ride I couldn't breathe and my palms were getting all sweaty. After we ordered our food I thought it best to step out of the vehicle to catch a breather. Suddenly I felt nauseous and I ran over to the trash receptacle to vomit, but I ended up swallowing it instead. As I made my way back over to the car I lost consciousness and fell off the side of the car like a sack of potatoes.

My mom said I was convulsing and having a Grand Mal Seizure. When I opened my eyes I was staring up at the stars and didn't recognize my mom at first. I must have hit the back of my head pretty hard when I fell, and bit my lip because I was bleeding.  When they tried to help me up I couldn't budge because my ankle was broken.

I didn't know until that evening that I was even epileptic. Little had I had known about Epilepsy at all until I had done some research on it. I was stunned to learn about my results.

As my mom drove me to get my EEG she was ridiculing me about not remembering the name of the building it was in. After a seizure my brain is like moosh. It is like reverting back to thinking like a child and slowly has to catch up. When she found out that the name of the building had her same maiden name she was like, "Seriously B? You couldn't remember that? Yeah, something must be seriously wrong." It is a scary thing when your mind start's slipping on you.

First I found out that the drugs I had been taking may have caused my seizures. I should have never been on such meds to begin with, but due to medical malpractice and negligence I was exposed to many ignorant people who thought they knew what was best for me. Unfortunately, Directions For Living did not feel the need to consult in others to find out about my medical history, like my children are suffering with at this moment due to parental alienation.

Second, Epilepsy can be hereditary and triggered commonly by high intense over stimulated sensory neurons in the brain. These chemical malfunctions are triggered due to extreme trauma, temperatures, sounds, and vibrations. These can all play factors, but basically people with Epilepsy are just more sensitive to their surroundings than most other people, which commonly can make them highly intuitive then most people.

There may even be a theory to a connection tying domestic violence and the survival instinct of the brain, especially when the abuser is using constant excessive force to the head over long extended periods of time, this is currently being researched into the domain of Epilepsy functioning. Epilepsy in fact is the body's way of showing us a malfunctioning survival mechanism. Even dead bodies have this capability to develop nervous twitching which is proof that the brain is still developing slow progression of shutting down.

In past history it was known as demonic, or possession, and many times misunderstood. In history people were often hung, thrown in prison, hospitalized, decapitated, and stoned for having Epilepsy.

As time has gone by and we have discovered that it is just a medical condition that can be cured, now advancements in technology, as well as medicine has taught us that many can live a very fulfilling lifestyle with Epilepsy, with the help and support of other's almost anything is possible.

You realize what a cold and dark world we live in, when your all alone to fend for yourself, and everyone has turned their back on you. Even the people you have truly loved and admired your whole life turn out to be traitor's. My biggest fear has been just knowing that I no longer have their support, and in reality knowing that I don’t have anybody. 

I try not to anticipate that I am going to have that one seizure, at the wrong place and time; that is going to set me back and put me out. 
Lights out B, Who are you? 
All that I have written will be completely erased; my past, present, future, hopes, dreams, and inspirations, as if they never existed. What will be left over I can't even imagine? That is what scares me about being Epileptic most of all. 

Fear is a human reaction, but I am not going to let it hinder me from living my life with my children. Knowing that I may not have as much time in this world as many others, has infused me to want to be close to my children even more, but someone is holding us back. That's why I write this today, so that we may never forget where my children came from. How devoted I was to protecting them, and how much I love them a whole bunch.

Chapter 23- New Year's Eve 2011

12/31/2011

New Year's Eve 2012 was a night to remember. Saul was drinking all day. He was a big shit talker full of spunk today. He always had a lot to say but that was my fiance. Saul seemed like a good guy and that's why I agreed to marry him unfortunately he was the only man that ever stood by me and got down on his knee and proposed to me. I figured I could count on him for he was the first and only man that had enough cajones to step up to the plate and be my man. Just to find out after this fact that according to him I was just a trophy wife. 

Tonight we planned on going out to paint the town red. Once again Saul ended up drinking himself to oblivion. This was not the first New Years Eve that he stood me up, see it had already been 8 years in the making. I really wanted to party. I was able to find a babysitter for tonight and I still didn't have one drink in me yet and I really wanted to dance.

Primo was a fun loving character, always laughing like a clown and down to have a good time. We both tried to get Saul out of bed, but he told us, "Pat got me all worked up and now my head hurts, just go." Earlier that day Saul and Pat got into a confrontation. Saul hit Pat and Primo even intervened to tell Saul to back down because he was being a little too aggressive with the boy. It was obvious that Sauls head was boiling. Pat was staying at his grandparents house for the night. I knew we didn't have much money to go but I said, "The hell with it, let's BOUNCE Primo."

The first thing we did was hit the LQ and I bought a big bottle of Parrot Bay. I was swigging shots all night. Primo didn't want any cuz he said,  "I don't drink that shit B" so he was spicing it up instead. So as he was driving we were passing it back and forth we decided where we were gonna go. Downtown Tampa YBOR City where all the crazy cat's congregated and it was POPPIN! We paid addmission into this club called the Amphitheater and then after that we was broke, but it was worth every single penny. As soon as we made our entrance the House music was pumping and they had a rotating dance floor. I chose to park my butt right in front of the loud speaker so I could feel the bass penetrating through out my bone's. I just danced in front of that speaker for hour's. 

Every once in a while I would catch Primo at the corner of my eye rotating around on the stage and checking in on me. He was a mysterious fellow all inconspicuous like. He mostly kept to himself but every once in a while he would Wild out. Well tonight he didn't probably because he didn't have any drinks in him. I thought to myself..let's go fuck with him. So as soon as he rotated my way I jumped on the dance floor and started bumping and grinding with him and I think this surprised him because he didn't know what to do with himself. So then I moved onto the guy next to him and he grabbed me and said, "Let's go!"

So we were walking down the main street mingling and there are just thousands of intoxicated people everywhere and I seen this bar Cayote Ugly like the movie where if you get up on the bar and dance you get a free shot. So I grabbed Primo by the arm, "C'mon let's go get a free shot! " So I jumped up on that bar and started dancing while the guy's started cheering Primo walks out, "Primo wait!" I was thinking oh c'mon fuck him I am not leaving without my shot. Soon after I got it I stepped down from the bar to look outside and he was gone. For a good one to two hours I was flying solo. 

CHAPTER 21- FLORIDA

09/10/2009

We moved to Largo, FL. to be a family. The economy was bad at this time. Florida was in the under goings of a rescission. Obama was giving out stipends to boost the economy. All Saul and I could find were temporary jobs. I started working as a nanny. Pat was in daycare. My dumb ass was cooking empanadas and getting ready for an interview putting on my stockings and a grease fire started over the oven.

I immediately threw water on it which made it worse. I tried to smother it with a lid but it was too big. So I opened the front door. I picked up the pot by the handle and ran with the fire blazing and threw it out the front door. It is a miracle that my face and body did not have 3rd degree burns everywhere. I thank you GOD for protecting me. It could have been a lot worse. When the fire trucks came all I suffered from was smoke inhalations and a 2nd degree burn on my hand. The firefighter gave me some advice to next time throw milk on the flame during a grease fire or an extinguisher always does wonders.

The housing complex kicked Saul, Pat, and I out on the street. They wouldn't let us stay in our apartment due to repairs. Luckily, Red Cross put us in a hotel for a few nights, but now we found ourselves homeless. Saul did some research and he found a shelter that was willing to take us in Largo FL. It was convenient but we had to share our unit with other families.

The first family we lived with us was a mother, her two daughters, and her son they were from Africa. Her son and my son had to share a room. One day her son got this dumb idea to heat up the tip of Pat's toy and brand my son with it. Saul was pissed so he returned the favor by planting tacks in the kids shoes. The poor kid couldn't walk for weeks.

05/14/2010

Saul's grandmother had passed away while we were here. On this night Saul stopped by the bar on his way home from work and had quite a few drinks. Coming back he was pulled over by Largo police. They took him in and booked him for his second DUI. Largo police responded to a Church driveway the officer approached Saul and noticed a distinct odor of alcohol coming from his breath, his eyes were watery, glassy, and bloodshot, his face was flushed. Saul agreed to complete SFST's and performed poorly. He was arrested. While he was being booked Saul brown nosed the officer and told him, "I appreciate the job that you do. You saved my life, I had about 5-7 bud lights, I am not going to lie." During the investigation, Saul asked the officer to let him go and give him a break because he was Hispanic too. He did this multiple times.

Poor Saul couldn't catch a break. Lost his home, grandmother, job, and our car ended up getting impounded a couple of weeks prior. Everything was turning out to be a mess. Luckily, I was a student and was able to take out an additional lump sum from my loan due to economic hardship to plant us back on our feet in a new apartment. Getting through this time together with Saul made me realize how strong we were as a couple and I learned to appreciate him even more.

10/11/2011

As soon as our family settled into our little apartment Primo came to visit. Just like Primo to come follow us down to Florida from Boston. I decided to treat him by taking him to OZ which was a strip club. We sat at the stage throwing $$$ at the dancers and I asked him "Which girl do you like the most?" We compared besties and then I handed him over a $20 and told him, "Go get em' tiger." Primo say's, "For real B?" I replied, "That's all you, mano." Granted I was flirting a little trying to show some hospitality to my brother.

I still favored him a little which made it difficult on the ride home because I think that lap dance was just a tease to the main course because after I parked the car he was all over me. Now it had been 5 years since we last fooled around and I honestly did not see this coming which opened up a whole slew of feelings that I had packed away thinking it could never exist. I thought about Saul and I stopped myself and said to Primo, "What are we doing?" and Primo whispered, "I don't know you feel so good. " I was proud of myself for keeping my big girl panties on tonight and setting Primo in line. "I am with your brother. I love him. I can't do this." Primo said, "Of course, understood, my bad B."

We decided that's where we were going to leave it, no more fucking around Saul and I were taking our relationship to the next level. Primo was just going to have to except that, hopefully Primo could respect me, and it did get better for awhile until I found out Saul was cheating on me.

Chapter 20 - Our New Home

Chapter 20 - Our New Home

10/11/2007

Pat and I were able to get housing in Hyannis and Saul wanted to live with us. I told Saul the circumstances that because he was not on the lease he could not be living with us but he can still come and visit the baby and I.  Saul practically moved in any way until his erratic behavior started affecting us.

Saul had a serious drinking problem that was getting pretty out of control. He was taking it out on poor Pat. One day I don't know what Pat did to deserve this but; Saul put Pat out on the freezing cold balcony with no clothes on. It was just cruel. I wrapped a blanket around my baby and yelled at Saul. Saul just said, "You need to stop babying him." I said to Saul, "He's one years old, he IS a baby and you’re going to kill him." Then I kicked him out. I made an oath to myself never to leave Pat alone with Saul again.

Saul would get so shit faced and I was afraid to let him in. We had a chain on our door. Saul decided to kick in our front door and I had to call the cops because he was so belligerent scaring us while I was trying to put the baby to sleep.

I started talking to a therapist about what was going on with Saul and had Saul come in on some therapy session's to give Saul some help and direction. I think it might have worked because after Saul seemed more inspired to make some changes in his life. We were discussing our dreams and future together.

We spoke about buying a house in Florida. Saul told me he was going to stop drinking and get a job transfer down there so he could become established. That is exactly what he did. At the time Saul was paying child support $25/ wk for Pat. This helped me with diapers or clothes. Pat and I had just about everything we needed. I was working.

Pat was getting childcare and special services for his behavior. Pat had bi-lateral hearing loss which was alleviated by tubes put in his ears. I wasn't sure if this was cause for his developmental delay or Saul’s influence on him, but now that Saul was out of the picture he began thriving. I was able to potty train Pat and work with him on talking and understanding him more clearly. He was growing up fast. Luckily Pat had everything he could ever want or need.

Saul had been living in Florida for a few months now and he wanted us to move there with him. He promised that he stopped drinking and wanted us to get married and be a family. We were already engaged. Our dreams of owning a home finally seemed tangible. I was still very skeptical about how we could work out. Should we move?

Not the brightest idea in the world, but I decided why not give Pat and I our best chance with Saul. It was obvious that Primo was settling down with yet another girl and it was about time I try and take my relationship with Saul to the next level. So the whole family helped us pack up the U-Haul and we trucked it down from MA to FL.

Chapter 17 - Guilt And Shame

02/29/2005

Primo gave me the 411 about Saul that he already had 2 kids that he didn't support, collecting unemployment, and no license which Saul lied to me about. Why would Primo even tell me this if he didn't want to be with me?

I approached Saul with the news and he gave me a totally different reaction than Primo. Saul was so excited that he knelt down on one knee and kissed my belly. It was so sweet and it gave me piece of mind that he was supportive.

I felt horrible guilt that I had sex with his brother now. A month later as we ate food at one of our favorite restaurants, I was sitting across the table from him and looked him dead in the eye. I told him the truth, "There is a possibility that this child I am carrying Saul could be your brothers." Saul did not say anything, he didn't want to eat his dinner either and we ended up going to our new home.

I think Saul was in shock because he wouldn't touch or talk to me for several weeks and our relationship changed. He made my pregnancy hell. I think it was his way of seeking revenge upon me. One day while I was driving he hit me across the head. I pulled over to defend myself and we got into a fist fight while I was pregnant! He stuck me with a huge cable bill that went into collections. At the time Saul worked for Citizens Bank in downtown Boston and stole all my money from my bank account.

Saul and Primo were not getting along either. Primo went out to a night club with Saul and some of Primo's friends. Saul started freaking out and targeting people and Primo felt he had to put Saul in his place so they pulled over somewhere in downtown Boston and a fight broke out, three against one. Primo ended up having to cut his hair because Saul left a bald spot, and gave Primo's boy a black eye. Saul came at me once he got home infuriated. He cornered me and held my wrist until they were black and blue. I was able to free myself from him making my way into the kitchen.

The way he came at me scared the living daylights out of me. His eyes were all blood shot red and he resembled the anger of a demon himself. In fear I started to pray; "Please GOD protect me and my baby from this man." The way our kitchen was set up there was a step going down to the kitchen from the living room, and thank GOD Saul tripped over it and hit his head on the kitchen floor leaving a crack. At that very moment he fell unconscious. My ass should have turned around and left him there, but being the good Samaritan I am helped him for he was delirious and confused not remembering anything, so I assisted him calmly and tucked him into bed.

9/7/2005

My uncle Joey overdosed today. I found him on the bathroom floor turning blue and I called 911. They took him to the hospital by stretcher and resuscitated him. Hours later he comes home while I was heating up leftover Chinese food and we get into a little shoving match and the jerk slaps me across the face after I saved his life. He said, "I can't have you eating all my Chinese food get your own." I was hurt. I went back to Saul's crying and telling him what happened. Saul wanted to shank my Uncle Joey. I told him, "NO! I just needed someone to listen." As Saul wiped away my tears consoling me and holding me I never felt as safe as I did in that moment. I felt protected by a man for the very first time in my life.

Chapter 16 - Dear Lord?

02/10/2005

As I stood there looking over the city of Boston on the 19th floor balcony of my nana's building. I prayed a very special prayer to GOD because I felt so alone.

First I said, Dear father GOD please forgive me for I have sinned. I have not been pure of heart, for I have chosen to live a promiscuous lifestyle and have found myself pregnant. Although I am fortunate to be able to carry this creation of yours inside of me I am scared that I am not going to be able to provide for all of the babies needs on my own. My child needs a father. I never had that and it really screwed me up. I want more for this child. More than what I had. I am honored Lord that you have given me this little person to spend my life with. I just wish you would send somebody to love us unconditionally. Send me my soul mate to help me raise this baby. I know I don't want to do this alone. This baby needs to be loved by both of their parents. Please help me make this happen. I love my child more than I love myself. I will give my all for this child. I just need for my child and I to be happy and loved and know that no matter what that they belong. I just need your love LORD. Shine your love on me and my child right now.

Send us someone to love us unconditionally like you do. Father, I need a father, soul mate, best friend, provider, and man to take care of us. Please deliver to me before this baby is born. I thank you and love you father for you have always been good to me, please keep me in your favor and never leave me alone.

Part Two- Chapter 14- The Biggest Tip Ever!

01/10/2005

Saul thought, Wow! This is the prettiest girl I have ever dated, and he really wanted to impress her. So he decided to wear his wife beater T-shirt and flex his muscles on the front porch as Bea pulled into the driveway for their date. Though Saul was feeling under the weather he was not going to bail on the prettiest girl in the world.

Bea was actually a little disgusted when she saw Saul on the porch in his T-shirt. She really didn’t think he was attractive, but he seemed like a nice guy and she didn’t want to go to her job’s holiday Christmas party solo again. She wore her red dress that busted out her bosoms. Saul wasn’t complaining. Actually Saul was losing his voice throughout the night because his throat killed. Bea didn’t know Saul well enough to tell. She just assumed that Saul was bored so she chose for them to leave the job function party thingy and go to a club in downtown Boston called the Roxy. Of course the club was banging better music and Bea was dancing, but she noticed Saul was struggling to talk. Then she realized something was wrong.

Saul was embarrassed. He never lost his voice on a date with a girl but it was happening. Saul barely knew how to communicate with Bea it was almost like playing charades. So he just leaned in and gave her a long passionate kiss. Bea understood Saul was sick and she accompanied Saul to the ER that morning. Saul had a rare case of Laryngitis and sore throat. Saul thought, major brownie points for Bea sticking by him at the ER. This girl was a keeper.

When Bea dropped Saul off she instantly fell in love with the man that opened the door. He was younger than Saul, dark curley hair, cute dimples, and a warm smile. Much more charming than any other man that Bea had ever met. He said to Saul, “Hey mano.” “Hi” Bea said, “Yo my bad, I’m Saul’s brother Primo.” “Primo?” Bea said, just the sound of his voice was sending butterflies and jumping jacks in her head and belly. Unbelievable right off the bat in Beas head she was thinking, I fell in love at first sight with my dates brother. This cannot be possible. Then Bea thought, this is not so bad just play it off and get to know one another. We shall see what comes of it.

DREAM (REVOLUTION Lyrics) by, B' onnie

DREAM  lyrics by, B' onnie

This is my dream
and I'm going to go for it.
With or without you.
Your not holding me back.
I had enough of that crap.
I wish I could fly
And touch the clouds in the sky.

(Dream)

Be calm and be true
And you can make it through
All those hurdles and bumps
Turn to yourself
Don't look to nobody else
It's one of those things
We all have to go through
To find out what makes you
You.

(Dream)